May Ting

Dragons and Exams~

2011-03-04T20:26:00.001-08:00

As always, I'm still fascinated with dragons. I wonder if they ever exist. If they do, I would wanna have a job related to them.

Whoa... Exams, only 2 days away.
I'm excited to get it quickly finished! You know, the faster it ends, the better!

Whatever It Is I'm Up To

2011-01-17T06:38:00.001-08:00

I've thinking of doing something like transcribing? Yeah, I want to transcribe the song "The Score In Blue" by Stella Quintet+. I've transcribe a part of the vocal part and am still working on it. Hopefully, I'll be able to produce something fruitful.

Heck! I couldn't find the music sheet for "The Score In Blue". That's why I'm doing my best to transcribe.

Ah~ I just love Mamoru Miyano's songs. His song are touching, really. I wonder if there's any music sheet for the song "Soup" by him.

I miss NEWS and TegoPi~ I still love their song "Share".

Happy New Year!

2010-12-31T10:14:00.001-08:00

*Drum rolls* 2011 rolls in and HAPPY NEW YEAR!

Sorry for the wrongdoings I've done in the past year. Don't keep it to heart, k? Forgive me?

Thank you for everything that you've done. I'll treasure them.

Love you guys! *kisses and hugs*

New Year's Eve

2010-12-30T21:54:00.001-08:00

So, what's everyone doing?

Me? Bored as always. Just up to watching some movies that's all.

Watched quite a tragedic (to me) movie yesterday though it was a happy ending. *sniff*

Oh heck... Right now, I feel like reading romance stories, alright.

3 More Days

2010-12-30T00:07:00.001-08:00

Man, just three more days and school reopens. I don't want it. I still want my beloved holidays! *whines*

Gosh... Do I get to say that I'm close to adulthood now? I can't believe I'm going to be an adult! *squeals*

I'm getting worried. I'm gonna depart from my world of children's fantasies to a world of reality. A world of... Let's say, a harsh world of cruelty. Gah!

By the way, I've only just turned sixteen fourteen days ago~ I'm not ready yet!

Hoho... Good luck to those who are going to learn to drive next year. *winks*

Congratulations!

2010-12-22T20:19:00.000-08:00

Congratulations to all PMR candidates who got straight 'A's.

I'm thankful that my second little sister and my little cousin sister got straight 'A's~

Well done! Enjoy the remaining holidays and Merry Christmas in advance.

By the way, I got the textbooks for Form 5 already. This is pressuring... And I just do wonder what is 'The Curse' about.

Vegetarian Night~

2010-12-22T04:46:00.000-08:00

Eating vegetarian tonight. Hungry, man.

Had pizza in the afternoon. Can't believe I'm the one doing the ordering. The frustrating thing is nobody would get the phone until I waited for quite some time! Grrr...

Diary of the Day

2010-12-20T04:13:00.001-08:00

Haha... Fruit juice? Yay! I blended a banana, some strawberries and an apple. Too much, I guess. The product was for three person to consume!

I was wondering if I should change my blogskin?

Oh right! When I grow up (if I still have the interest, that is), I wanna learn the cello. The sound it makes, so beautiful~!

Recommended Fruit Juice of the Day :D

2010-12-19T04:43:00.000-08:00

Okay. This recipe is not your ideal one. But this was what I drank for today with my family. Taste sweet, like a mixture of papaya and banana. Tasty~.

First, you need a blender machine to blend the fruits/vegetables. That is a must. :P

The fruits/vegetables you need:
1 Carrot
6-10 Cherry Tomatoes
6-10 Ildi Tomatoes
2 Banana
1/4 Papaya
Some ice
1/2 glass of water

Okay-ish. Until then~

Plantations~

2010-12-19T03:31:00.001-08:00

Okay. So, we went to the little garden we have at home. And these are some few things we got.

The red ones are... Seriously, I don't know what's the name. But, my parents called it Ribena. That left me confused.

The other brownish ones are keledek. Small and cute. There are even smaller ones but Daddy threw it away. He said, "too small." They were the size of half a thumb or even thin like the ring finger. Too thin, less flesh.

I'm bored.

2010-12-19T02:03:00.001-08:00

Haha... This picture is a collection of some of our pets. Our, as in my sisters' and mine. Some are covered in dust. Too bad.

Well, I likey the one in the plastic. The white doggy with a Santa hat. It's the newest I got as a collection~

♦- I hope... - A letter from Mom and Dad }}

2010-11-26T18:32:00.000-08:00

Something to share...

2010-09-24T06:39:00.000-07:00

First of all, this information was gotten from my chemistry tuition teacher, Mr. Hor. All credits are to him.

To prevent cancer, we should avoid:
1. Eating excess protein (Especially when we are cancer patients, protein helps the cancerous cell to develop and spread faster. Remember: protein helps generate new cells and replace the dead ones)
2. Sugar (It feeds the canceer cells)
3. Meats (It's acidic and cancer cells grow faster and better in this condition) including smoked meats like sausages
4. Drugs (Preventing is better than curing)
5. Avoid barbequed food like sate, grilled chicken or any grilled meat
6. Saturated fat food like butter or fatty meats

To prevent cancer from spreading, what should we do? Simple.
1. Eat more fresh vegetables and fruits (Vegetables are alkaline. They neutralise the acid in our body)
2. Eat more food with antioxidant like fruits (eg. prunes, raspberries)
- Believe me, antioxidant maintains good skin, makes you look younger (preventing agent)
3. Eat food with Vitamin C. (This vitamin has lots of antioxidant)
4. Eat less smoked and grilled food, including oily food. They're harmful. (Grilled/Fried/Barbequed chicken is the most harmful food to our body, even more harmful than beef!)
5. Eat more fish oil with Omega 3 (It's healthy and good for the skin too.)
6. Don't try to smoke

Do you know that oxygen is used to cure cancer patients? Haha... Unbelievable, right?

The heck?

2010-09-21T03:16:00.000-07:00

Wae? Mwaahahaha... This is Kyuhyun...

Finally found the password for this particular blog site. Had been trying to guess for some time.

Lol! Sarahnya likes Kyuhyun and said he's her 1st boyfriend. No! Kyuhyun's claimed by Sungmin. Sarahnya, don't steal. Haha...

The left is Kyuhyun and the right one is Sungmin. I'm an E.L.F. (Everlasting Friends) LOL! Fans of Super Junior are called E.L.F.

Oh, and I just realised Syafiqa's blog has been relinked. Hey, she gave me a broken link, for goodness sake.

What else? And I have too many accounts here and there I think I'm gonna have a hard time remembering passwords. Huahaha.

Something Done Using Paint.net

2010-09-20T07:30:00.000-07:00

Honestly, this is just a plain sketch which I've done today. And painted it, of course. I'm not sure if it's nice or anything.

Seems like... Not seems like but! I want for holidays. I'm sure everyone wants that. T^T

First day of school and guess what? BM teacher gave us homework that could be essay length? Man, I'm upset.

Haha... Few days ago, finally I have Dictionary.com on my h/p. Installed it myself.

Speaking of that, The picture above was done using Paint.net which I installed yesterday. IT FREAKING CRASHED TODAY! So, I had to send an email to those responsible for this problem.

Updating my blog since I'm bored and felt like doing so.

Updating

2010-02-24T01:25:00.000-08:00

Blek~ Hahar... Just felt like wanting to activate my blog again.

Oh well, let:s just say accounts is really difficult to understand. *Huff*
Homeworks are piling up and I'm sure everone agrees to that.
But I have an extra homework. Music. Theory. Grade 8 is hard. Even the practical is hard. Boohoo... T.T

Will update soon.

Back!

2010-01-18T07:54:00.000-08:00

Another drawing by me! And it's Yu Kanda x Lavi~!

People are thinking that my blog is dying. Well, not really so. I just had no idea what to post about.
Hmm... Since that I'm here... Perhaps I should say something?

Okay. *takes in deep breath*

I went to Singapore for Christmas and quite enjoyed my time there. I get to go to the Zoo too. The funny thing is that during the Night Safari Watch, the tour guide scared the heck out of me when he said something like, "Beware. There might be some crocodiles lurking in the shallow murking water. So, make sure your legs are in the tram." Whoa! At once, I hugged my knees close to my chest. My sister laughed at me! Hmphfed!!! Blek~! I know, it was my fault after all. I had argued to sit by the side and it bit right back at me. *regrets*

Unfortunately, we didn't get to see the animal's show! But the exciting part is, walking under the bats which are hanging just above your head. Believe me, it was spooky and imagine its cold wings sticking to your face while it clung tightly to you. *shudders*

Oh yeah! During the hols, it's just one of my unlucky day, month or is it year already because I sprained my knee. For two weeks I waited and thought it was just something very minor. But look, last Saturday, I sprained it again. That's so not fair!

Well, good news is that it's going to be Chinese New Year soon, on Valentine's Day itself. In my opinion, most youngsters would be celebrating Valentine's Day with their girlfriend or boyfriend. Mmm.... I don't have a boyfriend. ^^

La Corda D'oro Addicted

2009-11-20T11:58:00.000-08:00

Huahahaha!!! I found myself addicted to La Corda D'oro now.

Yay!

2009-10-29T06:28:00.000-07:00

My 3rd blog skin!
I know it sucks and everything.

Yo!

2009-10-19T00:39:00.001-07:00

Belated cheers for finishing PMR already! Three cheers!!!

Recently, school activities are just as bored as ever.

Oh yeah! On the last day of school, I actually straight away went to the library to borrow a novel.

And almost everyday I'm reading manga online.

I found these pictures while browsing for D.Gray-Man pictures:

-Front cover-

-January and February-

-March and April-

-May and June-

-July and August-

-September and October-

-November and December-

Cool! A whole set of it. So happy.

Kya!!!!

2009-09-07T01:22:00.000-07:00

What the-? Idiot stupid Noah!!!!! Grrrr!!!!!
They are killing too many people. And why is Kanda always targeted? Is he going to die? Please no. I don't want another person to die. Please be safe, Kanda-sama... *Sniff*
Oh yeah. It's not anime. It's just manga. I've been reading manga for quite some time from www.onemanga.com

Hehe... I also have been watching anime from my favourite anime site: www.anilinkz.com
I'm currently searching for an anime to watch.

Yeah, well... I know that PMR is coming close soon. But I just can't help it. I love watching anime, that's all.

Yu Kanda, please come home safely...

Finish Trial!!

2009-08-21T03:52:00.000-07:00

Yay!!! Finish trial PMR!!! Woohoo! Three cheers!!!

I'm watching Kyo Kara Maoh! Up till episode 43. I really like bishounen as in 'pretty boy'.

The pretty boy is Wolfram. He's cute!

Eat and joy (not read as 'enjoy so, please...)

2009-08-05T06:46:00.000-07:00

I wish people would stop calling me to slow down my eating. Makes me loose my appetite. That's what my parents tell me to do so. I can't help it. I just happen to have that habit since I was a baby. Mom said that When she went away for only a while and returned but to find the bottle of milk empty. Funny, I thought. I must have been like a hungry monster to drink up so fast. (Unlike my little sister which is the complete opposite of me. She eats very slowly.)

I just can't help eating fast, k? Okay, so, I admit that I can finish spreading two pieces of bread with butter or 'kaya' and then finish them in about five minutes time, in the early morning. I can finish a plate of rice, mee or whatsoever that is for my lunch or dinner in about fifteen to twenty minutes. So what?

Whatever. I had better stop talking about eating. It makes me hungry. Hehe...

I had a headache again today. But not as bad as last monday and the day before that, even worse. I felt like compresseing my head, as if it would help. Ha! I felt like slamming my head to the wall, as if I want to die. No, not just yet! I still want to live to observe the world and be part of it. I took a panadol and doze off for a while. Felt much better for a change.

I can't believe my sister is actually spending so much time and money to just to get to talk to Min Xuan. Blek~! And that can say, the news had spread. Whoo~! T.T I can't believe my sister at all. Cheh!

I don't wanna go to the motivasi lar! Boring. Huhuhu...

I'm currently reading a book of 'Night Whispers'. It is quite interesting but I still like the book, 'Whitney, my love' better. I don't know but I like to absorb myself into a book. To obsessed with books. Books are part of my joy, that is, if it is a happy ending. Hehe...

Anime is also part of my joy. Hehe... Can't help it. But then also, I love happy endings.

I like it when it's 'happily ever after'. ^_^

But most of all, my family is the biggest part of my joy although I may admit that I'm sometimes suffering being with them. I'm still happy though.

Kya!!!

2009-08-03T06:34:00.000-07:00

Ahhh!!! I'm definitely going bonkers.

What? I was acually trying to help Chang to draw something but then later, when I looked up, I almost get a heart attack. Shit! Azri is just standing in front of me! What the-?

And during perhimpunan, I thought I knew she was not going to stand beside me. Guess what? Out of the blue, she was just beside me and almost actually. Just in front, beside me. If you don't understand, never mind. Let's just say, she's standing near me.

I don't know whether to be happy or not.

Hey, I should stop talking about her in my blog. If I should ever post something about her, let's just post it in my other blog named, 'My Idol' (http://www.kyouyaootori2211.blogspot.com/). I should start doing so. Soon. Hehe... And start talking about myself in my this blog. It's because people start asking me, "Is this suppose to be your blog or hers?"

Well, what can I say? I've recently been busy watching Saiunkoku Monogatari. I find the story very cute especially the character 'Koyu Li'.

What else can I say? I've been very happy these days. For no reason at all. Cheerful, I am. Although I may be depressed until I was able to talk to myself. Haha...

Today is a sunny day, not that other people didn't know but sunny days are very sunny these days. It's so hot that I wished that I will rain soon. Like last Monday or is it the dya before? Though maybe I had been sleeping for a lot of hours, I still know it's raining. I was pretending if I said I don't know. Hehe... Trying to make myself a fool, that is. I'm a jerk anyway.

Huhu... I had missed watching D.Gray-Man on TV for weeks. Boohoohoo.

I had also not sign in my friendster, myspace and facebook for a long time. Lazy and I'm now currently watching Saiunkoku Monogatari.

What can I say some more? I don't know....

Trial PMR is coming. I'm wishing everyone good luck for it! Gambatte kudasai!!!

Ai shiteru, Yu Kanda-sama!

Thank you to all my tomo-dachi's (friends) for existing in my life! I'm happy.

Gomenasai...

2009-07-28T06:10:00.000-07:00

Huhuhu... It's a long time ever since I ever post. I know. I'm still unclear about my feelings. Don't ask me, I beg. Please. Thank you.

I don't know. Wakaranai! I don't know!

I have been sick since last Sunday. I woke up and got this headaches and feverish feeling. You know, when I went to see the doctor, you know what was the result? 39 degree celcius! Believe me! I got a shock myself that I think I'm proud. P-R-O-U-D.

I sleep and eat, sleep and eat, sleep and eat until I have no idea where am I and what time is it.....

Let me be me once again

2009-07-15T06:22:00.000-07:00

I just don't know but these few days, I'm not myself.
1. I started the morning with a gloomy face. I have to try to smile every day to assure my fellow friends that I'm my normal self. But I'm honestly not that okay. It seems. I just don't know. I always put on a gloomy face. But after I tried my hardest to smile, I might be able to smile 'the normal self of me' smile for the rest of the day. Some times, it doesn't turn out to be like this. I'll just go put on my gloom face behind other's back. Hehe... I don't know!!!

Forget about my first unnormal self.
2. I am totally crazy about her, Azri. Who else? I dont know why but she is a precious person to me. Honest. The ex-idols I had doesn't last long. Only last a few days or weeks but... Azri? I don't know. She must be a very special person, then. Because I admire her for about more than six months. Incredible. I almost can't believe myself.

I hope people doesn't ask me why I admire Azri again.
The first time I ever know her was when Syafiqa mentionad that she also like Yu Kanda. Of course, I would love to meet other fans of Kanda. Syafiqa didn't seem to mention that it was an ex-. Ugh! Heck! Then, I realised I admire her, not because she like Kanda. Okay, sort of firstly, maybe yeah but then, later I realised I admire her more than that. Whoa...

Special features she had? Lots... Like:
- Adorable
- Intelligent
- Skilful
- etc.

What I know is that she's adorable. That's the most important thing.
Every day, my desire to talk to her grew more and more.
But I know I am hopeless. I'll never get to talk to her face-to-face. I'm not that brave a person. I never got the nerves to talk to seniors, not even with people of my age from the other class.
I just wish, sometimes I had an elder sis to ask her opinion but too bad I only got two younger sisters. I'll be the first one to go through things. I wouldn't dare ask my parents. Many things I couldn't tell because fear of what they might comment or say. With my second sis who's a year younger than me, we can be said to be very close sis. But... whatsoever. Honestly, you can say my 2nd sis is much more matured than me.

Aaaarghhhh!!!! Why am I lost in the blog?!! I meant, I just keep on typing with what comes to my mind. Oh, I just hate myself already but yet, I love myself. I created a mess of myself. I am ever always confused.

And one thing, I just wish that one particular person can read my mind and convey my msg to others because whatever my mind pictured, I can't put it into words. I'm bad with words. I can imagine lots of things but I can't express it out.

Lastly, I've heard that Form 4 are having exam, am I not wrong? I don't know lah! But anyways, I want to say Good Luck to everyone in Form 4.
Especially, to my most admirable Azri: Good Luck and try your best. I'll be in your shadow supporting you! (Where else could I be except her shadows?)

I finally realised...

2009-07-06T06:47:00.000-07:00

Whoa! x 100 times. Speaking of she not talking to me and also she not bothering to read my blog...
I'm absolutely wrong 100 %.
I can't imagine lar...

When I FINALLY signed in myspace... It's just like my eyes are popping out! She replied my msg. I had been thinking that all hope was lost and I'll be watching her adorable back from far, me being the invisible person in her life.

It came as a surprise that she replied my 'baka' msg. You've gotta be kidding!

And believe me... I don't think she's rude. She's just COOL, that's all. ^_^

AZRI IS 100% ADORABLE AS IT IS. ACCEPT THAT FACT, PPL.

Whoa...

2009-07-05T08:34:00.000-07:00

Whoa... x 100 times. Life's like that or what?

Blog of ppl.

'She''s cursing in her blog. (A-Z)

She is writing something I don't understand. (CSW)

Now I realised she call her 'jie'. (CKH)

She's not so active? (Raudhah)

Her blog. One word = Blur. (Arifa)

No new post? (GPS)

I felt like I want to punch her. (Olivia)

Do I even know that girl beside? (Nadiah)

Wei! WTHeck happened to our Ouran blog. *Killer face on* (OHSHC)

I noticed most ppl posting about the perkahwinan thing. Cheh! I hate that day. Couldn't get any better or what?

Hey, don't get offended ppl. If I have time, I'll visit other's blog.

Anyways...

I have been looking forward to Canteen Day!

And...

I have ten husbands waiting for me. Hahahahar!!!

1. Yu Kanda
2. Yunoki Azuma
3. Sebastian Michaelis
4. Soubi Agatsuma
5. Kyouya Ootori
6. Li Koyu
7. Yukimura Sanada
8. Allelujah Haptism
9. Nyx
10. Alto Saotome

I just LOOOOOOOVE to list. Hyoks!

My 9th and 10th hubby!

2009-07-01T03:24:00.000-07:00

Hnestly, I've found two hubbies. Hahar!!!

Loveless - Soubi Agatsuma

Kuroshitsuji - Sebatian Michaelis

Well, I jus don't know lar. It seems like everyday, I've been seeing Azri up close. Not that I hate it but I like it and it made me want to blush.

Whoa! It's damn painful on my arm lar! I got the injection today and it's hurting like heck!

Taggggg....

2009-06-22T03:33:00.000-07:00

Write the names of 20 friends you can think off the top of your head, and then answer the questions. Say you’re guessing if you don’t know, but at least guess on all of them. After doing this, tag your 20 friends to do the same.

1. AZRI
2. Olivia
3. Margaret (If you ask, my sis are also friends to me leh.)
4. Chang
5. Chiah
6. GPS
7. Ashwanii
8. Raudhah
9. Syafiqa
10. Yeen
11. Leen
12. Noni
13. Izzatul
14. Faizzah
15. Huda
16. Nadiah
17. Syahirah
18. Arifa
19. Liyana
20. Fara

How did you meet 7? (Ashwanii)
O.o In primary school. Standard 3 or 4. I donnoe which.

What would you do if 20 and 1 dated? (Azri and Fara)
Whoa. There are two sides of me, 1: Kill Fara for that; 2: What did I care anyways.

Have you ever seen 17 cry? (Syahirah)
No. Duh...

Would 4 and 16 make a good couple? (Chang and Nadiah)
Do they know each other at all? Seems like a 'no'.

Do you want to be 13's friend forever? (Izzatul)
Yar, of course.

Do you think 11 is attractive? (Leen)
Maybe, in many ways.

What’s 5’s favorite color? (Chiah)
If not wrong, blue.

When was the last time you talked to 9? (Syafiqa)
Today lor.

What language does 8 speak? (Raudhah)
Malay and English lor.

Who is 13 going out with? (Izzatul)
She doesn't date.

What grade is 16 in? (Nadiah)
Form 3!

Would you ever date 17? (Syahirah)
No, of course! She's a girl leh. I mean, she's a girl and a friend.
I only wish to date with my future husband. Tnx.

Where does 18 live? (Arifa)
Don't remember.

What is the best thing about 4? (Chang)
Crazily crazy. Laughing as always which make my day not so depressing.
She's the only one who can play the piano with me.
I mean, every one can play but she's a better partner.
I'm not saying anyone is not good here.

What would you like to tell 10 right now? (Yeen)
Err... Being a twins is fun?

What is the best thing about 20? (Fara)
Another crazy fellow who likes Lavi.
She likes DGM too.
That made my day too.

Have you ever kissed 2? (Olivia)
Yo. That's a stupid question to ask.
I don't know if I ever kiss her on the cheek before. Maybe yes, during our childhood.
Surely not on the lips. I'm saving my first kiss here.

What’s the best memory you have of 5? (Chiah)
A genius. Cutie pie face.

When’s the next time you’re going to see 4? (Chang)
Tomorrow in school, if she comes.

Is 2 pretty? (Olivia)
Yeah. 100 % sure she is.

What was your first impression of 15? (Huda)
My imaginative papa that is such a cute couple with Syafiqa. Hehe.

How did you meet 3? (Margaret)
After she was brought back home by my parents when she was just borned 1 or 2 days before.

Is 14 your best friend? (Faizzah)
Yesh.

Do you hate 6? (GPS)
Duh... no.

Have you seen 18 in the last month? (Arifa)
Yes. Classmate.

When was the last time you saw 16? (Nadiah)
Today, again.

Have you been to 5’s house? (Chiah)
No. But pass-by. Because my dad was sending her home.

When’s the next time you’ll see 10? (Yeen)
2moro lor.

Are you close to 11? (Leen)
Yup, I guess.

Have you been to the movies with 4? (Chang)
Never have I been out to movies wif frenz.

Have you gotten in trouble with 8? (Raudhah)
No.

Would you give 19 a hug? (Liyana)
Maybe. If she lets.

When have you lied to 7? (Ashwanii)
I donnoe.

Is 11 good at socializing? (Leen)
Yar.

Do you know a secret about 8? (Raudhah)
I have no idea.

Describe the relationship between 12 and 18. (Noni and Arifa)
Frenzzz.... Classmates last year.

What’s the best thing about your friendship with 9? (Syafiqa)
She's a good person to befriend with. Won't regret.

What’s the worst thing about 1? (Azri)
I don't want to answer. She's the best person to me.
Her worst is something special about her. Ahehe...

Have you ever had a crush on 12? (Noni)
Crush? No.
Idolise her? Yes, for a while.

How long have you known 2? (Olivia)
Just count the days from when she's born.

Have you ever been in a fight with 13? (Izzatul)
No. She doesn't fight.

Does 11 have a bf/gf? (Leen)
gf as in a girl and a friend? Yup.
No idea. Maybe got bf. Who knows.

Have you ever wanted to punch 1 & 16 in the face? (Azri and Nadiah)
Azri? Yes. Positive about it.
Nadiah? No.

Has 14 met your mother? (Faizzah)
Guess not.

How did you meet 17? (Syahirah)
This year. As classmates. AJK maths. I'm trying to get to know ppl.

Did you ever accidentally physically hurt 20? (Fara)
Yes, I guess. I don't remember.

Do you live close to 16? (Nadiah)
Whoa. Far as ever.

What is 8’s favorite food? (Raudhah)
Never have I take note of what ppl like to eat.

What kind of car does 1 have? (Azri)
No. She's still Form 4 lor.
Next year, she'll learn to drive.
Then, maybe she'll get a car of her own.

If you gave 14 $100, what would she spend it on? (Faizzah)
I won't do that. I'd rather spend on myself. Hehe... Spoilt brat of me.
But if I do, she might spend on something relating to the Lollipop band.

Yunoki-sama's birthday!

2009-06-20T07:13:00.000-07:00

Ne~! Second hubby's big day.
On 18th of June, it's Yunoki's birthday! I remember well enough alright.

Heck! Four days I've been seeing her. Something inside me always urge me to go talk to her. But how? AZRI!!!

Hahar... I watched finish Kuroshitsuji. Sad ending but I love Sebastian. Ninth husband. Huahahaha!!!

Oh, Kanda... I still love you the most in a way!

Azri... How and why is that we can't even be friends? It's unfair how it turn out to be. Gomenasai.

taggy...

2009-06-16T06:35:00.001-07:00

I got from someone's blog but I'm not tagged!
If you are tagged, answer these 14 questions, yar? -,<

1. Besides your lips, where is the favorite spot to get kissed?

2.How did you feel when you woke up this morning?

3.Who was the last person/people you took a photo with?

4.Would you consider yourself spoiled?

5.Will you ever donate blood?

6.Have you ever had a best friend who was of the opposite sex?

7.Do you want someone to be dead?

8.What does your last text message say?

9.What are you thinking right now?

10. Do you want someone to be with you now?

11.What was the time you went to bed last night?

12.Where did you buy the tee you are wearing now?

13.Is someone on your mind right now?

14.Who was the last person who text you?

TEN LUCKY Person to do this quiz.
1- Ashwanii
2- AZRI
3- Chang
4- Chiah
5- GPS
6- Olivia
7- Raudhah
8- Syafiqa
9- Syazleen
10- Syazreen

15. Who is no.2 having a relationship with?
Azri? How do I know? Ppl just won't tell me anyway.

16. Is no. 3 a male or a female?
Female.

17. If no.7 and no.1 get together, would it be good?
Raudhah and Ash? Sure, sure. They're friends.

18. What is no.1 studying about?
Ash? Erm... Same as me. She's the same class as me since Standard 3 or 4 (dunno which) and also till form 2! So, surely learning all the main seven subject for PMR! K.Hidup- KT lor!

19. when was the last time you chatted with them?
Them all? Azri's already more than a month for sure. Unless she wants to talk to me but I don't think she will at all! The others are last week!

20. Is no. 4 single?
Chiah. Yar. She'll kill me if I say she's not. But honestly, she had had a godsis, Jamie.

21. Say something about no.2.
Azri. Oooo... O_o
I dunno. She's everything to me! My best idol.
She's cute & adorable in every way, as always.
She's intelligent.
Has good skills in ninja-ing.
Erm... I dunnoe already and there are too many good qualities about her that I can't type finish.
She says I'm a stalker and she's not forgiving me.
More importantly, she's a SPECIAL person to me!!!

22.What do you think about no. 2 and no. 6 being together?
Azri and Olivia? Oh no. My sister dislike her in a way I can' tell at all. She says that person is rude. (But to me, it's just her, Azri. No one can change that fact. ^.^)

23. Describe no.9.
Syazleen?
Twin sister of Syazreen. Call her Leen. 15 yrs old like me. Cute. Born on 8th of December (Same as my father. Hahar...) She's my friend. What to say some more? Dunno.

24. What will you do if no.6 and no.7 fight?
Olivia and Raudhah? Impossible that will happen.

25. Do you like no.8?
Syafiqa. I don't hate people. I don't dislike any ppl of the above or I wouldn't choose them as lucky persons. (especially Azri! Ha!)

I'm blanko.

2009-06-16T06:05:00.000-07:00

I realised life is hard to go through. I'm sesat jalan ady. Someone anywhere? Pls help me out. These two days, life is difficult 4 me. I kept seeing 'her'. Then, my heart will skip a beat. "Is it her or am I dreaming?" "Why the heck she's appearing in front of my eyes for so many times?" Just when she got me so painful in the heart... She sort of broke a part of my heart (where that part was reserved 4 her. The others are for my 8 hubbies.). It's just so unfair to be meeting her countless times. Well, next time, appear before me when I'm still admiring u lar... My life is always upside down, isn't it?

Now, to tell u the truth... I'm still admiring her in a way I do not know how to explain. And if my friends were to hear even her name, they will surely go *sigh*. So, I kept my feelings to myself. I won't disturd my friends' lives.

I'm bottling it up until I can't bear it. Okay, so I'm still admiring her and she said I'm some kind of stalker. Which it sent my heart to break a piece of it into pieces. Hey, I told u, the other parts r 4 my yu kanda, yunoki azuma, kyouya ootori, yukimura sanada, sebastian michaelis (the latest), etc. You wouldn't wanna waste time reading my hubbies' names, ne? So, my effort to convince her is just hopeless and can be thrown into the sea?

I've tried my utter best to make a friendship with her, by talking to her online. Fs and myspace... We talked like junior and senior all right. Almost there. Boom! Whoa. She knows I'm the same person who admire her? Unforgivable! And the stupid side of me, took action. On teacher's day, I gave her a rose. What was that supposed to mean? I'm showing some kind of hint to her.

Bah! The most idiotic and weakest side of me did a stupid thing. Deep down I was crying because I never saw her holding the red rose ever again. I blamed her that she threw it away. Damn it! Tch! But then, I never knew I've been stalking her life. I blamed myself and refuse to admire her again. I deceived the inner me and tried as best as I could, to hate her. To make her the one I hate the most. But the more I tried, I ended up hurting myself even more. I just don't want to know that.

Ugh! I'm a weak person inside. Although people say I may be hyper, energetic and whatsoever, I don't believe it myself. I know that I'm a weak person inside. I love myself if you asked. Yar, I love myself but I hate myself too. I can't explain in words.

Lastly, AZRI... when are you able to forgive me? I don't accept hate in life. To me, hate does not exist in my life. I dunno but maybe people do hate me a lot. But hate is the worst thing that will hurt me. I love everyone. I'm fine here. I will go on living. Gambatte!

Yar... Sebastian Michaelis is my eighth husband. Although a demon (akuma, as he says), he's sweet!!! Yar, I won't forget Yu Kanda!!! ^.^

Yu Kanda 神田ユウ

2009-06-07T00:20:00.000-07:00

Kya!!!! It's Yu-sama's birthday yesterday! I'm going bonkers. Stayed up till 12am to wish him, alright! And then stayed until the end of his birthday! Hahahar!!!

06/06/09 - Yu-sama's Birthday! Happy Birthday!!! Ai shiteru!!!

Love!!!

Hahaix! ;D

2009-06-03T23:33:00.000-07:00

-D.GRAY-MAN ADDICTED-

You wouldn't believe this but this is the first template I made myself. I'm proud of it although it sort of sucks in a way as the color matchings are that bad, ne? It took me two days to edit things here and there to make it fine. I'm almost mad!

D.GRAY-MAN ADDICTED!!!

Yu Kanda-sama...

Weee!!! Hehe...

2009-06-01T19:16:00.000-07:00

Special 100% thanks to Hasegawa-san for the template! I'm grateful and proud of it. D.Gray-Man related! Woohooo!!!!

And Yahoo!!! I found D.Gray-Man's 2009 Calendar! It's so damn nice. Cool! Cute! Sweet! You may say I'm too obsessed into D.Gray-Man, alright. I don't mind. ^.^ D.Gray-Man! Yu-chan! Kanda-sama! Yu Kanda, my prince! Without you for one day, I cannot live. Kya!!!!

Front Cover of D.Gray-Man Calendar

January and February
-Tyki Mikk (Careful. He has Tease (butterflies) that will devour your body, leaving you not even a particle left!), bad guy VS Allen Walker (Kind-hearted, strong-willed and so... strong!), the mainest character a.k.a good guy-

March and April

-Yu Kanda (MY LOVE!!! Do not look at his bare chest! Only I can. ^.^"') (Beware of his sword, Mugen, that might slice you if you annoy him! Has an inhuman speed. So, within a second, you'll be sliced. Not ever given a chance to blink your eyes!), main character a.k.a good guy VS Skin Bolic, bad guy-

*Faints and nose bleeds for looking at Kanda-sama*

May and June

-Arystar Krory III (A vampire! Beware! He'll sink his teeth into the Akumas (monsters)!), main character a.k.a good guy VS Jasdevi (Jasdero+Devitto), the twins a.k.a bad guy-

July and August
-Lavi (49th alias he assumed after casting away his real name to reach it) (Bookman Junior) (Has a hammer-like Innocence which he called Tettsui, referred to as Ōzuchi Kozuchi, that will hit Akumas (monsters) or do many other things. But he's kind enough to girls, hehe...), main character a.k.a good guy VS Road Camelot, bad guy-

September and October
-Earl of Millenium, the antagonist of the story, the bad bad bad guy VS General Cross Marian (Che! Always attract the opposite sex when he's around. Can be the playboy too!), main character a.k.a good guy-

November and December

-Lavi, Allen Walker, Lenalee Lee and Yu Kanda (So sexy. Do not watch his bare chest! Danger! He belongs to me!!!!!!)-

"Very simple and brief description only."

[D.Gray-Man addict]

[D.Gray-Man's biggest, craziest fan]

[Yu Kanda's greatest fan of all]

[Kya!!!!!]

Hols!

2009-05-30T07:49:00.000-07:00

Great! I changed my template. Thanks to Raudhah! D.Gray-Man! Hahahar!!!

And yar, mid-term test is the end! Woohoo! Cheers!!!

Fahrenheit is in Johor now. Boohoo. I can't go... I didn't go to digicentre to get the pass to go. Too bad.

Then, at least I had to dream of Yu Kanda-sama... ^.^

Wa Lau Leh...

2009-05-26T23:05:00.000-07:00

Hohohor... It seemed like I was tagging behind her after school but not really, just coincidence, that's all. Well, I was going out of class and waited for Chiah and Izzatul but then... Erm... I saw her going down the stairs. Yeah. I was going to go down the stairs too but a bit later than her. So, when no one was walking behind her and people who know that I admire her, might think I'm tagging behind her until the school gate. It's a long journey.

Heck. It seems that she saw me because I shouted when Huda came behind me to pinch my cheeks (She always seem to do so, not that I objected at all.). Heck, really! Because we are looking at each other... Ohmigosh. I can feel myself flushing pink. And it could be obvious. I don't know. nd I don't know what is her mind thinking. Is it s _ _ _ _ _ _? I hope not...

Life

2009-05-26T00:25:00.000-07:00

I saw AZRI today... My heart is at war. I don't feel like I want to know why at all... *Groan*

Reason? I still admire her? Oh no... Hate or admiration is at war now. I felt lke sobbing whenever I had a flashback of what she said about me being a s _ _ _ _ _ _. You can surely guess what was the word. I am fond of her and in my daydreams, she's my favourite godsis. Yar, I know she wouldn't accept.

I asked for her forgiveness in her blog and I knew she would be angry. It all started out that I gave her a rose (Stupid rose for existing but not its fault, mine.). Supposedly, rose are romatic, aren't they? But then later, I didn't see it anymore so I thought that she threw it, maybe? Wrong idea! She read my blog which was a big shock to me. I hated myself for the wrong accusation. I accused her throwing that rose. She used angry words. From her words, I was sure she was talking about me. Not only that. It seems that she was very angry. Damn it! She read my blog!

I asked for frogiveness in her blog. I said sorry. Then... she and I lost contact... In fs and myspace. She was never heard by me again. And I seldom see her... Until today that set my feelings at war! (I seemed dramatic but all was true). She changed her blog url just to get away from me. I'm... going to cry now but I'm holding on. Don't want to blur the image of the computer at the moment. I want to write on...

Okay... So... I'm very very very very very x1,000,000 million times SORRY!!! Forgive me and give me one last chance, please? Onegai? Anybody can tell me how to apologise to her whether faceto face or through mail. But for mail, she'll ignore me. On the other hand, she'll ignore me too in school. Ugh!! I'm useless!

Yup! Guess what? I got 2 free passes to enter the zon for Fahrenheit's concert! I'm thrilled to death! But still, it upsets me for... I can't go. Parents won't allow... They said it's dangerous that people might step on people, you know? All those pushing and squeezing. Hmm... My prents lways don't allow me out. It's a bit unfair and I know they care for my security but and I loved it that way how they protect me... I'm a big baby! They spoilt me. Not that I have any objection... at all!

So... the first time I get to go out without my parents was when I was Primary 6. Going to a trip to Jusco, organised by the school. Hehe... Thee second time that I remember was... me camping, also organised by the school anyway but I got home early because my sis not feeling that well. I admit I don't like camping. I mean, I can survive if I had my favourite bath and all. Spoilt kid. A pity... So spolit. Like spoilt princess!!! Hahahar!!!

I'm still very upset that I can't go to Fahrenheit's concert. Can't I have a little bit of freedom? I don't offend if My parents want to go. But my parents won't even allow me to go. Even if I have enough tickets. The thing is those free passes I won are going to be wasted. Such a pity... I beg that, for this once please let me go? I beg... I want to be hopeful that my wish will come true and I get to see my beloved Jiro hubby.... on stage, singing. I had been daydreaming that one day, Fahrenheit will come to Johor but I know it was hopeless. Then, it's just like magic is in the air. Suddenly, Fahrenheit did come! It was like, WOW! Unbelievable but true. But still... I can't go. Boohoohoo!!! TOT!!!

Oh! Did I tell you that the Grief and Sorrow is THE END already? Hahar... So careless of me...

Groan... and 'Grief and Sorrow... (Story Part 4)'

2009-05-23T06:40:00.000-07:00

I've never met someone so... "Ugh!" ... before. Simply just say... Do you really think you are worth it? You are not somehow. Grrrr!!! Cheh! Some person you are! And I can't believe what my friends said. Unbelievable, truly. Even my sister also support the fact about that 'HATE' thingy of mine. Yar, life's just like that for me. Always blinded by other things. Always chose the wrong things and then... regret. Fully. Ugh! Tch! I hate myself already. Everyday. Everything about myself. Full of hatred, that's me.

Ahhh.... I'm dreaming about Kanda, always. He never failed to 'not' hurt me. He's nice.

Oh, the sinful darkness tugging at my heartstrings,
Your voice is like anaesthesia,
Coldly, it robs me of my senses.

*Yukaho*

I stopped by the frozen lake and watched it, letting my tears flow. The darkness around me reminded me that I was in pain. I was and yet, I am.

I felt like commiting suicide now. I placed one feet onto the ice slowly and balanced myself. The cold ice under my shoes can be felt and sent shiver down my spine. It is cold. Very.

I only smiled. I am going to die. What I care for in this world. There's not a care anymore. My parents are gone, only an old man who is willing to adopt me. My best friend is gone too. I do not have a boyfriend. So, nobody would even care. So, why I care? It's useless to stop me now. I walked on on the thin ice to find a nice spot where no one can find me.

I did not notice someone watching me and shouting at me to come back, or rather not wanting to care. His voice fell back on deaf ears. I smiled to myself. He can watch, as he was just a stranger to me.

I tapped the ice underneath me. It should be time now. I tapped harder, breaking the ice. The person watching me was gone. Finally, I can die in peace.

A dark figure caught my arm and pulled me out of where I was standing and carried me on his back to firm ground. "We are safe..." he told me. I struggled to go back. "I want to die. Let go!" I shouted at him. He was too strong for me. He carried me all the way home.

He sang a tune, a lullaby. I remembered the sweet song. I fell asleep, head on his shoulder. I did not notice that he had me sleep on his bed while he kept on singing the lullaby to make me go to sleep. He stayed where he was for the whole night, beside my bed. Singing lullabies.

In the cold, I realise that, there is a someone that cared for me... A stranger, still. Why, oh why not let me die to end my suffering? I don't deserve this care. You are too kind.

So, am I going to start a new life in the next morning, with you still by my side? I grow to love this stranger, secretly, in my sleep. I smiled in my sleep and had the sweetest dream. I forgot my pain and dreamed.

Grief and Sorrow... (Story Part 3)

2009-05-21T03:43:00.000-07:00

My hopes were alone in the desolate night sky,
They soared high until they were crushed.
Each time the world changes shape,
The things I want to protect,
I end up breaking them.

*Yuuichirou*

I hoped that she had felt better when I leaded her into my warm house. I poured some hot tea for her. She remained silent.

I hoped that she would say something soon. My worries for her never stopped. Until she speaks something, then I will be put in ease.

My hopes were shattered because about fifteen minutes had passed as I stared at her for so long, she neither speak nor move, like a statue. I looked away, mind blank. I don't know what to say.

"Are you alright?" I decided to ask after taking a few moments to gather my courage to talk. I am those quiet type so, I am not very good in conversation.

She finally seemed to wake up from her senses for so long. Her wet eyes reminded me of a very pitiful animal who is hurt. I shook the thought away from my head and waited for her reply.

She answered softly enough for me to hear, "No." Suddenly, she buried her face into my chest and sobbed harder. I carressed her silky hair and hushed her. "Don't cry..." I said.

Each time she cried harder in every minute, it broke a piece of my heart. How I wished I can share what pain is she in. But she had not said anything besides a 'no'.

I felt that I must protect her in a way. No matter what happens, I must. She is sorrowful which made me felt as if she is not ever so strong to face the world anymore. She had weakened because of something I wished to know... as soon as possible, if she is willing to share.

"Do you want to share what is bothering you?" I asked her. She stared at me with those red eyes. It pierced my heart every time I see her like this. Wanting to bottle up her feelings, trying to be brave and strong. I wished I can read her mind to know.

Then, she cried harder and ran out of my house. I stared after her before I started to chase her myself. There, I had done the wrong thing, right? I shouldn't have asked. I should let her cool down a little bit more. And should have asked her name rather than that. But I want to know, to let her pour out her feelings, to make her feel better.

I regret. I promised to protect her but I failed at the first task, on the spot. I had broken her heart even more. I regret... regret and regret.

Grief and Sorrow... (Story Part 2)

2009-05-20T09:25:00.000-07:00

I watched it through the window of grief,
I never dreamed,
I stand frozen,
There... I come for you.

It's been quite some time for me... To stare out of the window... of grief. Grief as it is.

I had never been this interested in as watching the snow fall. It was really a beautiful sight. After all these years, never had I been absorbed into this nature. It came as a surprise. Funny, I thought.

Grief as it was. I saw someone so charming and caught my attention. I had rubbed my eyes to make sure that I wasn't dreaming. And there she was, kneeling and crying like her life was full of sorrow. I stand there frozen, did not have any idea what to do when I finally decided...

My thoughts were suddenly erased as I tore my eyes away from her because I had a ctually spilled my tea. That was certainly careless. I went into the kitchen to grab a cloth and wiped the mess away. Ugh! It still has its smell on the floor. I don't know what to do else as I'm a guy who had been left behind by my parents who died in a car accident, just like that without anyone to help raise me. I have no other relatives nearby. Alone.

I learnt the way of living myself. Earn my own money, which is more than enough. I am independent now although I'm just about 15 years old. It's been three years from that. I could get a wife, I joked to myself. I may had friends but was not close to any of them. I love to mourn by myself in my own house. To have peace and quiet so no one can bother me.

I gazed back out of the window. The 'she' was turning pale blue. Cold.

I started to get worried. I rushed out of my house and threw a thick blanket over her. 'There, I had come for you...' I whispered softly.

I am who I am with only one name I gave myself, Yuuichirou, as my old one only bring back memories of the past which was horrible. Very.

Grief and Sorrow... (Story Part 1)

2009-05-20T03:44:00.000-07:00

The sky is dyed red by the ebony darkness,
And the distant stardust swallowed up,
In this transient moment as the snowing ashes fall.

As a girl watched the dark sky, she felt... alone. With the dark sky looming over her, suddenly, snow started to fall above her, unexpectedly. In the field alone, she only felt pain. Too painful to bear. She fell backwards and layed on the soft patch of grass, watching the lonely sky.

I am who I am, Yukaho. I hated it. It's just too unfair. My life is meaningless already. I never thought that it could pierce me this deep in the heart. I wanted to heal but it was too difficult anyway.

It just crept its way into my mind...
-Flashback-

"Oh, shut up, Yukaho! I don't want to befriend you anymore. You're just a piece of junk to me now! Even Natsumi told me that you are not of my type. She said you don't suit me!" another girl of her age shouted at her while they were walking back home.

I stared at her, shocked. It sent shiver down my spine. Did she meant it? It took me some time to absorb her words into my mind. I couldn't believe it. I took one last look at her and ran off, spilling tears all the way home.

What kind of friend is she? She isn't worth to be my friend anymore. She insulted me. Once she told that she hated Natsumi and made me promise never to befriend with that fellow. But now, she even listened to her. What was that?!!

-End of flashback-

I walked back home, full of grief and sorrow. I don't want to befriend with her anymore. I regretted.

Snows had already covered my path to home. I kicked them off to release my anger. Then, I fell down onto my knees and started crying again. I don't want to go on living. I want to... die.

To be continued...

What???

2009-05-19T03:30:00.001-07:00

Kawaii Azri, Azri yang begitu kawaii sekali... Sekali pandang, dah nampak seorang yang comel. Comelnya, 100%. Bila dia senyum, lagilah comel tapi apabila mukanya yg cool tu... Pun nampak comel sekali!

Eventually,... Erm...

カワイイAzri, ゴメナサイ! (Katakana)
可爱的 Azri, 对不起！(Chinese)
Cute Azri, sorry!
Azri yang comel, minta maaf!

I really am a jerk! Not her fault. Just me simply accuse people. Huhuhu... T.T But I never quite well suspected that my blog had so many visitors. To think that my blog, only some of my friends know. But even seniors know? Very unexpected. Well, because my blog only contains Yu Kanda so much so I thought people will get bored and forget about it. So long forgotten. It's just that because Ashwanii said I kept talking about Yu Kanda so... I thought I might update about A-Z. Well, no need to say A-Z since she already know, too many people knows!

バカ！(Katakana)　ばか！(Hiragana) 笨蛋！(Chinese) Means: Idiot!
That's me!

Doushite?????

2009-05-18T02:28:00.000-07:00

Is it just me or 'her'(Bernama A-Z)?

Yeah well, I bought a flower -rose- for Azri on teacher's day although I shouldn't do so actually... Because it's teacher day. Chang counted the petals of the rose -to give or not to give- but the result was 'to give', not really accurate, I guess... I ended up standing there like a JERK! Gathering courage to give her, flushing the deepest red. Err... Fara called her for me and I'm so sorryyyyyy... Because she's eating. I'm gonna kick my own butt for disturbing her meal, if I can reach. It took some time for her to come, like forever~! Hehe... I shyly gave it to her. Her beautiful and kawaii smile is what I'm going to treasure... She smiled and said 'thanks'. OMG! It's my first time, face to face! I'm gonna kill myself somehow! I kept having flashbacks of it!

But then later, what upsets me. It's just me, not her fault. My existence was plainly.... Let's just say, I wish to be 'not existed' at the moment. But anyways, I love my own existence because I can see the WORLD. Going back to the topic... I sort of saw her 'without' the flower anymore. So, the first thought that came to me was that, she threw it. But will she do so? It is possible. You don't even know. It's a heartache for me to bear. It made me mad, want to cry myself to sleep but I didn't shed a tear. I want to be strong. I try to forget about it and think that it had never happened at all. So, that was my first thought.... But secondly was, maybe she 'tumpang letak' in other people's water bottle? Roses need water or will layu.... I'm being hopeful here. HOPE!!!

So, I can't decide whether it's the first or second. Or is there any option number three? I do not have any idea. I'm sick of this, thinking about this. I think I am crazy too! Huahahaha!!! Because... to forget upset, sad or angry thoughts.... I think of my lovely, one and only Yu Kanda!!! That's why I said I'm crazy but it's a help to me anyways. He made me forget the world I'm in. I just think of him, nothing else more.... It means I'm too obsessed in him, love him more than ever..... that no one else can replace HIM!

Although there are some other guys I go for, actually....

Animes: (Just font colour almost same with thier hair colour. Mostly black!)

Yu Kanda (D.Gray-Man)

Yunoki Azuma (La Corda D'oro)

Kyouya Ootori (Ouran High School Host Club)

Yukimura Sanada (Samurai Deeper Kyo)

Li Koyu (Saiunkoku Monogatari)

Allelujah Haptism (Gundam 00) [I got the sticker of their Gundams!!! Woohooo!!!]

Alto Saotome (Macross Frontier)

Nyx (Neo Angelique Abyss)

Real life:

Jiro Wang Dong Chen a.k.a Da Dong, from Fahrenheit a.k.a Fei Lun Hai

Danson Tang Yu Zhe

They're all my boyfriend!!! Or can I say.... Yu Kanda and Jiro is my husband?! Huahahahaha!!!

Eaaahhhhh!!!

2009-05-17T05:42:00.000-07:00

Kanda x Lavi - Kiss

Lavi hug!

Alone together...

My Favourite D.Gray-Man song!!!

Doubt & Trust ~Dauto & Torasuto~
Vocals: access

Owari mo miezu hashirinukeru
Yasuragi wa tooku sugata mo naku
Kodoku o fuujikomete tozashikakeru manazashi

Habataku mono o mukaeru sora
Shihaisareru no o osore ya shinai
Akogareru mabayusa wa subete o kaeru tame ni

Dare mo yurusazu ni doko e yukeru darou?

Hikari no moto yami wa umare
Shinjitsu wa itsuwari ni yureru
Kokoro o tsukisasu
Fureta yoru o koorasete mo
Yume to iu yokubou no kage o yobitsuzukeru

Kimi no tsumi to itami o shinjite yuku

Zenbu hoshii, to sasayaku koe
Nakushiteku koto ni oitsukezu ni
Saki made motomeru yubi tsumetasa ni kizukanai

Ai o nokosu nara tometa kuchibiru ni

Hikari dake ga yami o unde
Nukumori wa utagai o kasanete
Tadoritsuku omoi
Kawasu mune ni chikau mono ga
Eien no kizu de kamawanai kizamitsukete

Toki ni kizuku hazama ni kieru mae ni

Hikari no moto yami wa umare
Shinjitsu wa itsuwari ni yureru
Kokoro o tsukisasu
Fureta yoru o koorasete mo
Yume to iu yokubou no kage o yobitsuzukeru

Kimi no tsumi to itami o shinjite yuku

Fahrenheit!!!

2009-05-17T05:10:00.000-07:00

Fahrenheit!!!!

Shei da ying ni ke yi bu zai li wo

Shei tong yi ni zhe li jiu shi jin tou

Ni rang wo zuo de meng xiang ti qian jiao xing wo

Ni zhe hui shi ting jian mei you

Wo cheng ren zhe bu shi zui hao de wo

Wo jue ding hui lu ye gei ni geng zuo

Wo xin ku de zhu shou tai duo fen cha lu kou

Ke yi mi lu bu zai tui suo

Liu xia lai liu xia lai ji shi mei ai wan de ai

Wo hui shi xian ni zui qi dai de qi dai

Liu xia lai liu xia lai zai wo xin li zhu xia lai

Xiang dou bie xiang wo hui rang ni li kai

Ni dai lai zui mei de ling hun zao dong

Ni rang wo xiang xin wo yu zhong bu tong

Suo yi wo shu yu ni jiu xiang ni shu yu wo

Mei you le ni wo ai shen me

Liu xia lai liu xia lai ji shi mei ai wan de ai

Wo hui shi xian ni zui qi dai de qi dai
Liu xia lai liu xia lai zai wo xin li zhu xia lai

Xiang dou bie xiang wo hui rang ni li kai

Liu xia lai liu xia lai ji shi mei ai wan de ai

Wo hui shi xian ni zui qi dai de qi dai

Liu xia lai liu xia lai zai wo xin li zhu xia lai

Xiang dou bie xiang wo hui rang ni li kai

Ai!!! WOOHOOO!!!! I downloaded 11 new songs of Fahrenheit. Not really new but it's still new to me... Hehehe....

Earrghhhhh!!!!!!

2009-05-13T03:48:00.000-07:00

I would like to say good luck to those taking the Permata Pintar test because it is damn bloody hard!!! Spent about two hours although I was guessing all the way! Hey, lots of questions they ask, kay?
Here's the link: http://www.permatapintar.com.my . Good luck and hope I don't scare you. If you want to do the test, I advise you : DO NOT READ ON!!! If you're interested to know, you can read....

Firstly, there are three sections:
-1st section, choose pictures that you find they match. It's endless. Believe me! Oh, first few questions are easy, alright, but later, you'll find them difficult! It's really some kind of IQ test! I am sure I had already fail the first section. What's more? It's getting even more difficult!

-2nd section, type meanings of the words given. About more than twenty words. Make sure you are rich in vocabularies, then! If you don't know the meaning, you'll have to put a '?'. Ugh! I can tell you that most of my answers are blank. Rest assure. There may be words you know BUT couldn't explain. Just like me, for instance. Words I've heard before but I couldn't explain.
(Surely, Izzatul are going to the next test. She went to the Spell-it-right Competition and learnt about more than a hundred of words!)

-3rd section, 44 multiple choice questions. Just choose the best meaning for the word given. I made guesses for the questions!

T.T I did badly and WOULD fail for it! So, wish ya'all luck for those taking, kay? Don't get disappointed if you feel that you might fail. Don't be like me. I almost am going to cry. Of course, I already gave up half-way through but had to move on. I can't say anything anymore...

Tagged by Raudhah

2009-05-12T08:17:00.000-07:00

The person that tagged you is: Raudhah.
2. Your relationship with her is: Friends.
3. Your first impression of her is: Cute
4. The most memorable moments with her: Everyday seems to be...
5. The most memorable thing she has said to you is: Donnoe.
6. If she becomes your lover, you will: Never HAPPENS.
7. If she became your lover, what should she improve at: Nothing coz she'll not be.
8. If she becomes your enemy, what would you do: Make friends with her. I love peace. (Again)
9. If she becomes your enemy, the reason will be: Donnoe.
11. Your overall impression on her: Err... Cute friend?
12. The characteristic you love most about yourself: Don't have one.
13. The characteristic you hate most about yourself: Everything I guess!
14. The most ideal person you want to be is: Caring and happy-go-lucky.
15. For people that care and like you, say something to them: Thank you so very much!!! Haix! ^o^

Doushite??? Why???

2009-05-12T07:58:00.000-07:00

People kept seeing Azri but not me. Is it just my luck? ... She avoiding me or vice versa? What's the reason? Okay, like for instance today... Syahirah gets to see her 'coz she placed her bag in class. After maths hikmah, she went to get it. And ARGHHHH!!! She saw Azri sitting at Chiah sit!!! Doushite??? Why can't I see her? And that I'm gonna knock my head hard! How could I even forgotten that She has Japanese lesson today. A jerk of me, alright! I'm furious!!!!! Hmphf!

My love for her is deep. I'm shy to talk to her 'specially when she... her electric-shocking eyes that scare me out of my skin. Her stare is... scary! Okay... But still admire her. Aww... I wonder if Syafiqa had helped me to order the Ninjutsu pic for me? It's that important and precious to me, ya' know?

Kanda x Lavi. Another pic I got!

Oh yeah! I just got the song 越来越爱 (Yue Lai Yue Ai/Loving More and More)!

Haix!

2009-05-05T04:02:00.000-07:00

I found this picture rather interesting, you know. Kanda and Lavi, kissing. Sweeeeet!!

Honestly, in MySpace, someone invited me to play Mobsters when I have not any idea what was it about. All I know, it's a guy's things. All shooting. Ugh! I'm not into that unless I understand how to play that game. Wish I could have asked the one who invited me how to play. I really don't want to disappoint the him or her, whomever that is. Well, the him or her put an Anime picture. Noramally, I asumed that girls like Anime only, not guys. But, this person is playing this kind of game that made me think that it's a he. And also, want to tell that particular person, I'm not a 'he'. So, why lure me into this game? Feeling uncomfortable.

Hehe...

2009-05-05T03:37:00.000-07:00

It's Mori's birthday today. I forgot entirely about it until Miss President told me. Hmm...

Anyways, I just want to say... It's driving me crazy again, seeing her so close. I was just waiting for my mom to come and fetch me and then, I saw her so close (if not for Syahirah telling me). Ugh. Ohmigosh. Something inside me encourages me to talk to her but something else just pull me back to where I was. Couldn't reach out. At last, didn't succeeded in talking to her. What's wrong with me?? I don't know. It's unfair. Part of me wants to be brave but part of me drags me back to being a coward. I am a coward, even now. And always go crazy when mentioned.

Only Yuri can ease me and my thoughts. Seeing the cute face made me calm down. Thanks, Yuri. You're the best!

Today

2009-05-04T03:38:00.000-07:00

Gay, merry guys? Lavi x Kanda

Little Kanda crying

Kanda. Wow!

Blah blah. Bored? Yeah? A-Z was standing really at the most back during perhimpunan. That's quite unfair. Huhu... >.<

Haha. Love to pollute my blog with Yu Kanda's pictures.

DGM

2009-05-03T07:09:00.000-07:00

D.Gray-Man Fun

Black Order

Lavi, Kanda and Allen

My lovely Yu Kanda, Prince of my life!!!

Nature

2009-05-03T01:05:00.000-07:00

I'm getting to love nature... because of the Scrap Book. Even though I'm not in Pencinta Alam Club! Just teacher instructed us to make a scrap book of the Effect of 'Penerokaan Sumber' towards our nature. Hehe...

Nothing.

2009-05-03T00:09:00.000-07:00

Hey, wanna visit my sis's blog. Here's the link: http://www.litingandjolinforever.blogspot.com/

Hehe...

Yesterday, I went to buy a toy dog. Nice to hug! It's yellowish. Well, mostly. It's still pink somewhere. *Groan* But still like it!

Name: Yuri, short for Yurikola

Well, it's a combination name of Yu Kanda, Yunoki Azuma, Kyouya Ootori, Allelujah Haptism, Li Koyu and Azri. Hahaha! That's how it got a '-ri'...

Tag

2009-05-02T05:34:00.000-07:00

People who tagged me: Chiah

1. The person that tagged you is: Ka Hui.
2. Your relationship with her is: Friends.
3. Your first impression of her is: Intelligent.
4. The most memorable moments with her: Everyday seems to be...
5. The most memorable thing she has said to you is: Donnoe.
6. If she becomes your lover, you will: Never HAPPENS.
7. If she became your lover, what should she improve at: Nothing.
8. If she becomes your enemy, what would you do: Make friends with her. I love peace.
9. If she becomes your enemy, the reason will be: Donnoe.
11. Your overall impression on her: Err... Friend?
12. The characteristic you love most about yourself: Don't have one.
13. The characteristic you hate most about yourself: Everything!
14. The most ideal person you want to be is: Caring and happy-go-lucky.
15. For people that care and like you, say something to them: Thank you so much! Love you lots!
16. Pass this quiz to 10 people who you want to know how they feel about you:

(following name list)
1. Ashwanii
2. Azri
3. Chiah
4. Chang
5. Faradhiya
6. GPS
7. Olivia (Moko)
8. Raudhah
9. Syafiqa
10. Yu Kanda (Huahahaha...)

17. Who is 6 having a relationship with: [GPS] Donnoe.
18. Is 9 a male or female: [Syafiqa] Female. (There's only Kanda who's male here).
19. If 7 and 10 were together, would it be a good thing: [Olivia & Yu Kanda] Extremely not!
20. What is 2 studying at the moment: [Azri] Form 4 (4 SN 1).
21. When was the last time you had a chat with 3: [Chiah] Thursday afternoon.
22. What kind of music does 8 like: [Raudhah] Donnoe.
23. Does 1 have any siblings: [Ashwanii] Yes..1 elder brother.
24. Will you woo 3: [Chiah] No way! I'm not _ _ _ _ _ _ _ (You should know.)
25. How about 7: [Olivia] My sister. NO point.
26. Is 4 single: [Chang] Sure. Unless you want to consider that she's having a relationship with her Godsis, Phoebe.
27. What's the surname of 5: [Faradhiya] Uh...
28. What's the hobby of 5: [Faradhiya] No idea
29. Do 5 and 9 get along well: [Faradhiya & Syafiqa] Okay, so-so.
30. Where is 2 studying at: [Azri] SIGS, of course! Or I won't even know her and _ _ _ _ _ _ her!
31. Say something casual about your eyes: Blank.
32. Have you tried developing feelings for 5: [Faradhiya] No.
33. Where does 9 live: [Syafiqa] Permas.
34. What colours does 4 like: [Chang] Pink.
35. Are 5 and 1 good friends: [Ashwanii & Fardhiya] Okay.
36. Does 7 like 2: [7. Olivia - 2. Azri] No, guess not. Only me. Haha...
37. How did you get to know 2: [Azri] We're not friends but I knew about her because... Well, She likes MY Yu Kanda once.
38. Does 1 have any pets: [Ashwanii] Yes. Dogs.
39. Is 7 the sexiest person in the world: [Olivia] Can say, of course. She's my sis, ya' know! I grew up with her.

Well, just this, I guess... I've answer my best. (Hope Azri doesn't get mad at me, that's all!)

And, I just love that Yukimura from Samurai Deeper Kyo! But of course, I love Yu Kanda the best.

My Kawaii A-Z

2009-04-26T06:46:00.000-07:00

Hehe... It's been a long time since I post blog. Don't even bother. Huhuhu...

Just somehow I really did miss those days... Seeing A-Z everyday and talking about her to my friends, boasting how great she is. I just couldn't forget. Well, my friends pleaded me to stop talking about her so I reduced (not that I willingly want to!). She is cuter than ever. Just that she seems to be avoiding me a lot! And that almost the whole school knew that I admire her!

Twilight is a fun and loving story. Once you read it, you fell in love with it and enjoy reading till you can't let go. Although I'm way ketinggalan zaman, still it's better. Because... I just don't know!! Arghhh!!!

Yu Kanda, ai shiteru! I wonder why people doesn't like you. I mean you're just everything nice!

Donnoe!

2009-04-16T03:27:00.000-07:00

A-Z girl is ever so kawaii!!! She's having her monthly test! Gambatte!!!

She got Ninjutsu practice too? Poor thing. She must be damn tired.

Well, hello? I'm tired here too! After yesterday, I'm very tired. So sleepy!!!

What?!

2009-04-14T06:30:00.000-07:00

Oh... 2moro's choir pertandingan will be going on... Haix... Wish me and my friends luck!

I'm going for Pertandingan Nyanyian Solo for fun! Just because I'm singing to my dearest Allelujah Haptism, Fifth King of My Heart!
Ash Like Snow song... Heard from Gundam 00!

Just Whatever

2009-04-13T03:22:00.000-07:00

Last Saturday was great. I could feel myself blushing. Ohmigosh! That A-Z girl was ever so close!!! Of course, we were going to be given ceramah about 3K, somethin' like keselamatan, etc. I wasn't there to listen. I had choir practice.
Honestly, she's ever so close. It so happens to be all of us had to turun padang just to see the Bomba people padam api. At first, I didn't really notice she was just in front of me! Oh dear... It was a bit embarassing that she was just in front of me! Arrrggghhh!! I feel like going to faint. Hallo~? A someone you admire was just right in front of you. You would really get a shock! Duh~!
Just that I'm not sure if she knows and didn't care if I admire her... But my friends said she knows. Even A-Z girl's half the class know! I am going to faint. To think that I can keep a secret like this from her. But what's the point anyway? At last people will know, right?
Uh.... Firstly, I admire her because she loves my King of my Heart. Then, I started to realise that that's not the only reason. I love her to bits! She's everything precious to me, except that she's second precious. Family's come first! Speaking of family, I really love them all!
Well, anyway, A-Z girl is Queen of my Heart (Don't ever think that she married Yu Kanda to be my Queen!!!). And, I 'm not what you think - lesbian! I'M NOT!!! I just admire her! OK??

About today, the A-Z girl spoke to Syafiqa... I'm jealous. I can feel it. Going to slap myself. I was always jealous but it's normal, right? Just ignore my jealousy!!! It's normal in MY life.

Anyways, Ai shiteru Kanda-chan!!!

Sesi Fotografi!

2009-04-09T03:33:00.000-07:00

Hallo? Must be crazy! We're actually havin' a photograph taken, class photo, of course!

And I saw the lovely (A-Z) girl walking past! Ahhhh!!! I must have gone bananas! She's so cute while she walked, holding a book! Hey, I'm not crazy. It's common and normal to admire a person! She's a special person. She's intelligent too!!! The Queen of my Heart!!

I love the song, Ash Like Snow!
I really love it!!! I heard it from Gundam 00!

D.Gray-Man is on air on 'okto', every Sunday, 7.00 pm!

Skip Beat had finished already and Monster is going on air! I hate the show!!! I might as well watch Gundam 00! Even better!

Ah!!! I want Yu Kanda very much!!!! He's the King of my Heart!!!!!!! Will ever be!

Donnoe...

2009-03-22T06:32:00.000-07:00

Tch! Kanda would have said...
But... He is always busy with his missions! So high-spirited, so cool, so mean, so hardworking and so CUTE!!!
He's the best guy I've ever met!!!
He doesn't easily warms up to people, I know...

End of Holidays!

2009-03-22T06:25:00.000-07:00

Groan... Back to school! Imagine that!!! Have been trying to enjoy the hols but just because of the stupid Sejarah Folio!!! But I do enjoy visiting the Istana Besar... Hehe... But still... Have to go back to school and yet I haven't memorize fully the song for Choir... Don't ask... I was forced to participate Choir! Even worse was I am singing the Soprano part! Walau eh... I was suppose to be Alto here... Bad luck! Hehe...

D.Gray-Man

2009-02-25T02:48:00.000-08:00

The D.Gray-man anime and manga series features a diverse cast of characters created by Katsura Hoshino. The series is set on a fictional Earth at the end of a nineteenth century where the Black Order wages war against the Millennium Earl who intends to destroy humanity with his army of akuma, weapons created from the souls of the deceased when their loved ones curse God for their loss. To aid in their efforts, the Black Order scours the world for the 109 pieces of a divine substance called Innocence, which has been washed away during the Great Flood, and for people who can use anti-akuma weapons, the Innocence in its weaponized form. These people, called Exorcists, are able to effectively fight against and destroy the akuma. One Innocence, referred to as the "Great Heart" will assure their victory. However, the Earl is also looking for the Innocence and the Heart with the intent to destroy them.
The main character of the series is Allen Walker, a young Exorcist who recently joined the Black Order after training with his master General Cross Marian. When presenting himself to the organization, he is mistaken for an enemy and is attacked by another Exorcist, Yu Kanda. However, once the mistake is realized, Lenalee Lee prevents any Kanda from causing further mishap. Once inside the headquarters, Allen learns he is the prophesied "Destroyer of Time" who is the only one who can defeat the Millennium Earl. As the series progresses, Allen meets many of the members of the Black Order headquarters as well as those in other branches worldwide. He eventually meets a young, aspiring bookman called Lavi and his predecessor Bookman, who follow Allen on his adventures to witness and record the events for the bookman's record. Allen also encounters the antagonist the Millennium Earl, his akuma army, and the Noah Family, a group of humans who aid the Earl in his plot to destroy humanity.

Yu Kanda

2009-02-25T02:29:00.000-08:00

Yu Kanda (神田ユウ ,Kanda Yū) is a cold and rude 18-year-old Exorcist from Japan. He is the first Exorcist that Allen meets at the Black Order HQ and since then they have an ongoing loathing toward each other which often causes them declare a series of insults and offensive statements towards each other. He is a disciple of General Tiedoll and hates the way the man treats him. He can recover much faster than ordinary humans due to a mysterious tattoo above his heart and a lotus flower kept in an hourglass. Kanda refuses to die until he finds "a certain person". His anti-akuma weapon is Mugen (六幻 ,Six Illusions), a sleek, and is able to unleash several techniques dubbed "illusions".

May Ting

Dragons and Exams~

Whatever It Is I'm Up To

Happy New Year!

New Year's Eve

3 More Days

Congratulations!

Vegetarian Night~

Diary of the Day

Recommended Fruit Juice of the Day :D

Plantations~

I'm bored.

♦- I hope... - A letter from Mom and Dad }}

Something to share...

The heck?

Something Done Using Paint.net

Updating

Back!

La Corda D'oro Addicted

Yay!

Yo!

Kya!!!!

Finish Trial!!

Eat and joy (not read as 'enjoy so, please...)

Kya!!!

Gomenasai...

Let me be me once again

I finally realised...

Whoa...

My 9th and 10th hubby!

Taggggg....

Yunoki-sama's birthday!

taggy...

I'm blanko.

Yu Kanda 神田 ユウ

Hahaix! ;D

Weee!!! Hehe...

Hols!

Wa Lau Leh...

Life

Groan... and 'Grief and Sorrow... (Story Part 4)'

Grief and Sorrow... (Story Part 3)

Grief and Sorrow... (Story Part 2)

Grief and Sorrow... (Story Part 1)

What???

Doushite?????

Eaaahhhhh!!!

Fahrenheit!!!

Earrghhhhh!!!!!!

Tagged by Raudhah

Doushite??? Why???

Haix!

Hehe...

Today

DGM

Nature

Nothing.

Tag

My Kawaii A-Z

Donnoe!

What?!

Just Whatever

Sesi Fotografi!

Donnoe...

End of Holidays!

D.Gray-Man

Yu Kanda

Yu Kanda 神田ユウ