Friday, March 4, 2011

As always, I'm still fascinated with dragons. I wonder if they ever exist. If they do, I would wanna have a job related to them.

Whoa... Exams, only 2 days away.
I'm excited to get it quickly finished! You know, the faster it ends, the better!

Monday, January 17, 2011

I've thinking of doing something like transcribing? Yeah, I want to transcribe the song "The Score In Blue" by Stella Quintet+. I've transcribe a part of the vocal part and am still working on it. Hopefully, I'll be able to produce something fruitful.

Heck! I couldn't find the music sheet for "The Score In Blue". That's why I'm doing my best to transcribe.

Ah~ I just love Mamoru Miyano's songs. His song are touching, really. I wonder if there's any music sheet for the song "Soup" by him.

I miss NEWS and TegoPi~ I still love their song "Share".

Friday, December 31, 2010

*Drum rolls* 2011 rolls in and HAPPY NEW YEAR!

Sorry for the wrongdoings I've done in the past year. Don't keep it to heart, k? Forgive me?

Thank you for everything that you've done. I'll treasure them.

Love you guys! *kisses and hugs*

Thursday, December 30, 2010

So, what's everyone doing?

Me? Bored as always. Just up to watching some movies that's all.

Watched quite a tragedic (to me) movie yesterday though it was a happy ending. *sniff*

Oh heck... Right now, I feel like reading romance stories, alright.


Man, just three more days and school reopens. I don't want it. I still want my beloved holidays! *whines*

Gosh... Do I get to say that I'm close to adulthood now? I can't believe I'm going to be an adult! *squeals*

I'm getting worried. I'm gonna depart from my world of children's fantasies to a world of reality. A world of... Let's say, a harsh world of cruelty. Gah!

By the way, I've only just turned sixteen fourteen days ago~ I'm not ready yet!

Hoho... Good luck to those who are going to learn to drive next year. *winks*

Wednesday, December 22, 2010

Congratulations to all PMR candidates who got straight 'A's.

I'm thankful that my second little sister and my little cousin sister got straight 'A's~

Well done! Enjoy the remaining holidays and Merry Christmas in advance.

By the way, I got the textbooks for Form 5 already. This is pressuring... And I just do wonder what is 'The Curse' about.


Eating vegetarian tonight. Hungry, man.

Had pizza in the afternoon. Can't believe I'm the one doing the ordering. The frustrating thing is nobody would get the phone until I waited for quite some time! Grrr...

Monday, December 20, 2010

Haha... Fruit juice? Yay! I blended a banana, some strawberries and an apple. Too much, I guess. The product was for three person to consume!

I was wondering if I should change my blogskin?

Oh right! When I grow up (if I still have the interest, that is), I wanna learn the cello. The sound it makes, so beautiful~!

Sunday, December 19, 2010

Okay. This recipe is not your ideal one. But this was what I drank for today with my family. Taste sweet, like a mixture of papaya and banana. Tasty~.

First, you need a blender machine to blend the fruits/vegetables. That is a must. :P

The fruits/vegetables you need:
1 Carrot
6-10 Cherry Tomatoes
6-10 Ildi Tomatoes
2 Banana
1/4 Papaya
Some ice
1/2 glass of water

Okay-ish. Until then~

Okay. So, we went to the little garden we have at home. And these are some few things we got.

The red ones are... Seriously, I don't know what's the name. But, my parents called it Ribena. That left me confused.

The other brownish ones are keledek. Small and cute. There are even smaller ones but Daddy threw it away. He said, "too small." They were the size of half a thumb or even thin like the ring finger. Too thin, less flesh.

Haha... This picture is a collection of some of our pets. Our, as in my sisters' and mine. Some are covered in dust. Too bad.

Well, I likey the one in the plastic. The white doggy with a Santa hat. It's the newest I got as a collection~

Friday, November 26, 2010

Friday, September 24, 2010

First of all, this information was gotten from my chemistry tuition teacher, Mr. Hor. All credits are to him.

To prevent cancer, we should avoid:
1. Eating excess protein (Especially when we are cancer patients, protein helps the cancerous cell to develop and spread faster. Remember: protein helps generate new cells and replace the dead ones)
2. Sugar (It feeds the canceer cells)
3. Meats (It's acidic and cancer cells grow faster and better in this condition) including smoked meats like sausages
4. Drugs (Preventing is better than curing)
5. Avoid barbequed food like sate, grilled chicken or any grilled meat
6. Saturated fat food like butter or fatty meats

To prevent cancer from spreading, what should we do? Simple.
1. Eat more fresh vegetables and fruits (Vegetables are alkaline. They neutralise the acid in our body)
2. Eat more food with antioxidant like fruits (eg. prunes, raspberries)
- Believe me, antioxidant maintains good skin, makes you look younger (preventing agent)
3. Eat food with Vitamin C. (This vitamin has lots of antioxidant)
4. Eat less smoked and grilled food, including oily food. They're harmful. (Grilled/Fried/Barbequed chicken is the most harmful food to our body, even more harmful than beef!)
5. Eat more fish oil with Omega 3 (It's healthy and good for the skin too.)
6. Don't try to smoke

Do you know that oxygen is used to cure cancer patients? Haha... Unbelievable, right?

Tuesday, September 21, 2010

Monday, September 20, 2010

Honestly, this is just a plain sketch which I've done today. And painted it, of course. I'm not sure if it's nice or anything.

Seems like... Not seems like but! I want for holidays. I'm sure everyone wants that. T^T

First day of school and guess what? BM teacher gave us homework that could be essay length? Man, I'm upset.

Haha... Few days ago, finally I have Dictionary.com on my h/p. Installed it myself.

Speaking of that, The picture above was done using Paint.net which I installed yesterday. IT FREAKING CRASHED TODAY! So, I had to send an email to those responsible for this problem.

Updating my blog since I'm bored and felt like doing so.

Wednesday, February 24, 2010

Blek~ Hahar... Just felt like wanting to activate my blog again.

Oh well, let:s just say accounts is really difficult to understand. *Huff*
Homeworks are piling up and I'm sure everone agrees to that.
But I have an extra homework. Music. Theory. Grade 8 is hard. Even the practical is hard. Boohoo... T.T

Will update soon.

Monday, January 18, 2010

People are thinking that my blog is dying. Well, not really so. I just had no idea what to post about.
Hmm... Since that I'm here... Perhaps I should say something?



Okay. *takes in deep breath*


I went to Singapore for Christmas and quite enjoyed my time there. I get to go to the Zoo too. The funny thing is that during the Night Safari Watch, the tour guide scared the heck out of me when he said something like, "Beware. There might be some crocodiles lurking in the shallow murking water. So, make sure your legs are in the tram." Whoa! At once, I hugged my knees close to my chest. My sister laughed at me! Hmphfed!!! Blek~! I know, it was my fault after all. I had argued to sit by the side and it bit right back at me. *regrets*



Unfortunately, we didn't get to see the animal's show! But the exciting part is, walking under the bats which are hanging just above your head. Believe me, it was spooky and imagine its cold wings sticking to your face while it clung tightly to you. *shudders*



Oh yeah! During the hols, it's just one of my unlucky day, month or is it year already because I sprained my knee. For two weeks I waited and thought it was just something very minor. But look, last Saturday, I sprained it again. That's so not fair!



Well, good news is that it's going to be Chinese New Year soon, on Valentine's Day itself. In my opinion, most youngsters would be celebrating Valentine's Day with their girlfriend or boyfriend. Mmm.... I don't have a boyfriend. ^^

Friday, November 20, 2009

Huahahaha!!! I found myself addicted to La Corda D'oro now.

Thursday, October 29, 2009

My 3rd blog skin!
I know it sucks and everything.

Monday, October 19, 2009

Monday, September 7, 2009

What the-? Idiot stupid Noah!!!!! Grrrr!!!!!
They are killing too many people. And why is Kanda always targeted? Is he going to die? Please no. I don't want another person to die. Please be safe, Kanda-sama... *Sniff*
Oh yeah. It's not anime. It's just manga. I've been reading manga for quite some time from www.onemanga.com

Hehe... I also have been watching anime from my favourite anime site: www.anilinkz.com
I'm currently searching for an anime to watch.

Yeah, well... I know that PMR is coming close soon. But I just can't help it. I love watching anime, that's all.

Yu Kanda, please come home safely...

Friday, August 21, 2009

Wednesday, August 5, 2009

I wish people would stop calling me to slow down my eating. Makes me loose my appetite. That's what my parents tell me to do so. I can't help it. I just happen to have that habit since I was a baby. Mom said that When she went away for only a while and returned but to find the bottle of milk empty. Funny, I thought. I must have been like a hungry monster to drink up so fast. (Unlike my little sister which is the complete opposite of me. She eats very slowly.)

I just can't help eating fast, k? Okay, so, I admit that I can finish spreading two pieces of bread with butter or 'kaya' and then finish them in about five minutes time, in the early morning. I can finish a plate of rice, mee or whatsoever that is for my lunch or dinner in about fifteen to twenty minutes. So what?

Whatever. I had better stop talking about eating. It makes me hungry. Hehe...

I had a headache again today. But not as bad as last monday and the day before that, even worse. I felt like compresseing my head, as if it would help. Ha! I felt like slamming my head to the wall, as if I want to die. No, not just yet! I still want to live to observe the world and be part of it. I took a panadol and doze off for a while. Felt much better for a change.

I can't believe my sister is actually spending so much time and money to just to get to talk to Min Xuan. Blek~! And that can say, the news had spread. Whoo~! T.T I can't believe my sister at all. Cheh!

I don't wanna go to the motivasi lar! Boring. Huhuhu...

I'm currently reading a book of 'Night Whispers'. It is quite interesting but I still like the book, 'Whitney, my love' better. I don't know but I like to absorb myself into a book. To obsessed with books. Books are part of my joy, that is, if it is a happy ending. Hehe...

Anime is also part of my joy. Hehe... Can't help it. But then also, I love happy endings.

I like it when it's 'happily ever after'. ^_^

But most of all, my family is the biggest part of my joy although I may admit that I'm sometimes suffering being with them. I'm still happy though.

Monday, August 3, 2009

Ahhh!!! I'm definitely going bonkers.

Thank you to all my tomo-dachi's (friends) for existing in my life! I'm happy.

Tuesday, July 28, 2009

Huhuhu... It's a long time ever since I ever post. I know. I'm still unclear about my feelings. Don't ask me, I beg. Please. Thank you.

I don't know. Wakaranai! I don't know!

I have been sick since last Sunday. I woke up and got this headaches and feverish feeling. You know, when I went to see the doctor, you know what was the result? 39 degree celcius! Believe me! I got a shock myself that I think I'm proud. P-R-O-U-D.

I sleep and eat, sleep and eat, sleep and eat until I have no idea where am I and what time is it.....

Wednesday, July 15, 2009

I just don't know but these few days, I'm not myself.
1. I started the morning with a gloomy face. I have to try to smile every day to assure my fellow friends that I'm my normal self. But I'm honestly not that okay. It seems. I just don't know. I always put on a gloomy face. But after I tried my hardest to smile, I might be able to smile 'the normal self of me' smile for the rest of the day. Some times, it doesn't turn out to be like this. I'll just go put on my gloom face behind other's back. Hehe... I don't know!!!

Forget about my first unnormal self.
2. I am totally crazy about her, Azri. Who else? I dont know why but she is a precious person to me. Honest. The ex-idols I had doesn't last long. Only last a few days or weeks but... Azri? I don't know. She must be a very special person, then. Because I admire her for about more than six months. Incredible. I almost can't believe myself.

I hope people doesn't ask me why I admire Azri again.
The first time I ever know her was when Syafiqa mentionad that she also like Yu Kanda. Of course, I would love to meet other fans of Kanda. Syafiqa didn't seem to mention that it was an ex-. Ugh! Heck! Then, I realised I admire her, not because she like Kanda. Okay, sort of firstly, maybe yeah but then, later I realised I admire her more than that. Whoa...

Special features she had? Lots... Like:
- Adorable
- Intelligent
- Skilful
- etc.

What I know is that she's adorable. That's the most important thing.
Every day, my desire to talk to her grew more and more.
But I know I am hopeless. I'll never get to talk to her face-to-face. I'm not that brave a person. I never got the nerves to talk to seniors, not even with people of my age from the other class.
I just wish, sometimes I had an elder sis to ask her opinion but too bad I only got two younger sisters. I'll be the first one to go through things. I wouldn't dare ask my parents. Many things I couldn't tell because fear of what they might comment or say. With my second sis who's a year younger than me, we can be said to be very close sis. But... whatsoever. Honestly, you can say my 2nd sis is much more matured than me.

Aaaarghhhh!!!! Why am I lost in the blog?!! I meant, I just keep on typing with what comes to my mind. Oh, I just hate myself already but yet, I love myself. I created a mess of myself. I am ever always confused.

And one thing, I just wish that one particular person can read my mind and convey my msg to others because whatever my mind pictured, I can't put it into words. I'm bad with words. I can imagine lots of things but I can't express it out.

Lastly, I've heard that Form 4 are having exam, am I not wrong? I don't know lah! But anyways, I want to say Good Luck to everyone in Form 4.
Especially, to my most admirable Azri: Good Luck and try your best. I'll be in your shadow supporting you! (Where else could I be except her shadows?)

Monday, July 6, 2009

Whoa! x 100 times. Speaking of she not talking to me and also she not bothering to read my blog...
I'm absolutely wrong 100 %.
I can't imagine lar...

When I FINALLY signed in myspace... It's just like my eyes are popping out! She replied my msg. I had been thinking that all hope was lost and I'll be watching her adorable back from far, me being the invisible person in her life.

It came as a surprise that she replied my 'baka' msg. You've gotta be kidding!

And believe me... I don't think she's rude. She's just COOL, that's all. ^_^

AZRI IS 100% ADORABLE AS IT IS. ACCEPT THAT FACT, PPL.

Sunday, July 5, 2009

Whoa... x 100 times. Life's like that or what?

Blog of ppl.

'She''s cursing in her blog. (A-Z)

She is writing something I don't understand. (CSW)

Now I realised she call her 'jie'. (CKH)

She's not so active? (Raudhah)

Her blog. One word = Blur. (Arifa)

No new post? (GPS)

I felt like I want to punch her. (Olivia)

Do I even know that girl beside? (Nadiah)

Wei! WTHeck happened to our Ouran blog. *Killer face on* (OHSHC)

I noticed most ppl posting about the perkahwinan thing. Cheh! I hate that day. Couldn't get any better or what?

Hey, don't get offended ppl. If I have time, I'll visit other's blog.

Anyways...

I have been looking forward to Canteen Day!

And...

I have ten husbands waiting for me. Hahahahar!!!

1. Yu Kanda
2. Yunoki Azuma
3. Sebastian Michaelis
4. Soubi Agatsuma
5. Kyouya Ootori
6. Li Koyu
7. Yukimura Sanada
8. Allelujah Haptism
9. Nyx
10. Alto Saotome

I just LOOOOOOOVE to list. Hyoks!

Wednesday, July 1, 2009

Hnestly, I've found two hubbies. Hahar!!!

Monday, June 22, 2009

Write the names of 20 friends you can think off the top of your head, and then answer the questions. Say you’re guessing if you don’t know, but at least guess on all of them. After doing this, tag your 20 friends to do the same.


1. AZRI
2. Olivia
3. Margaret (If you ask, my sis are also friends to me leh.)
4. Chang
5. Chiah
6. GPS
7. Ashwanii
8. Raudhah
9. Syafiqa
10. Yeen
11. Leen
12. Noni
13. Izzatul
14. Faizzah
15. Huda
16. Nadiah
17. Syahirah
18. Arifa
19. Liyana
20. Fara


How did you meet 7? (Ashwanii)
O.o In primary school. Standard 3 or 4. I donnoe which.

What would you do if 20 and 1 dated? (Azri and Fara)
Whoa. There are two sides of me, 1: Kill Fara for that; 2: What did I care anyways.

Have you ever seen 17 cry? (Syahirah)
No. Duh...

Would 4 and 16 make a good couple? (Chang and Nadiah)
Do they know each other at all? Seems like a 'no'.

Do you want to be 13's friend forever? (Izzatul)
Yar, of course.

Do you think 11 is attractive? (Leen)
Maybe, in many ways.

What’s 5’s favorite color? (Chiah)
If not wrong, blue.

When was the last time you talked to 9? (Syafiqa)
Today lor.

What language does 8 speak? (Raudhah)
Malay and English lor.

Who is 13 going out with? (Izzatul)
She doesn't date.

What grade is 16 in? (Nadiah)
Form 3!

Would you ever date 17? (Syahirah)
No, of course! She's a girl leh. I mean, she's a girl and a friend.
I only wish to date with my future husband. Tnx.

Where does 18 live? (Arifa)
Don't remember.

What is the best thing about 4? (Chang)
Crazily crazy. Laughing as always which make my day not so depressing.
She's the only one who can play the piano with me.
I mean, every one can play but she's a better partner.
I'm not saying anyone is not good here.

What would you like to tell 10 right now? (Yeen)
Err... Being a twins is fun?

What is the best thing about 20? (Fara)
Another crazy fellow who likes Lavi.
She likes DGM too.
That made my day too.

Have you ever kissed 2? (Olivia)
Yo. That's a stupid question to ask.
I don't know if I ever kiss her on the cheek before. Maybe yes, during our childhood.
Surely not on the lips. I'm saving my first kiss here.

What’s the best memory you have of 5? (Chiah)
A genius. Cutie pie face.

When’s the next time you’re going to see 4? (Chang)
Tomorrow in school, if she comes.

Is 2 pretty? (Olivia)
Yeah. 100 % sure she is.

What was your first impression of 15? (Huda)
My imaginative papa that is such a cute couple with Syafiqa. Hehe.

How did you meet 3? (Margaret)
After she was brought back home by my parents when she was just borned 1 or 2 days before.

Is 14 your best friend? (Faizzah)
Yesh.

Do you hate 6? (GPS)
Duh... no.

Have you seen 18 in the last month? (Arifa)
Yes. Classmate.

When was the last time you saw 16? (Nadiah)
Today, again.

Have you been to 5’s house? (Chiah)
No. But pass-by. Because my dad was sending her home.

When’s the next time you’ll see 10? (Yeen)
2moro lor.

Are you close to 11? (Leen)
Yup, I guess.

Have you been to the movies with 4? (Chang)
Never have I been out to movies wif frenz.

Have you gotten in trouble with 8? (Raudhah)
No.

Would you give 19 a hug? (Liyana)
Maybe. If she lets.

When have you lied to 7? (Ashwanii)
I donnoe.

Is 11 good at socializing? (Leen)
Yar.

Do you know a secret about 8? (Raudhah)
I have no idea.

Describe the relationship between 12 and 18. (Noni and Arifa)
Frenzzz.... Classmates last year.

What’s the best thing about your friendship with 9? (Syafiqa)
She's a good person to befriend with. Won't regret.

What’s the worst thing about 1? (Azri)
I don't want to answer. She's the best person to me.
Her worst is something special about her. Ahehe...

Have you ever had a crush on 12? (Noni)
Crush? No.
Idolise her? Yes, for a while.

How long have you known 2? (Olivia)
Just count the days from when she's born.

Have you ever been in a fight with 13? (Izzatul)
No. She doesn't fight.

Does 11 have a bf/gf? (Leen)
gf as in a girl and a friend? Yup.
No idea. Maybe got bf. Who knows.

Have you ever wanted to punch 1 & 16 in the face? (Azri and Nadiah)
Azri? Yes. Positive about it.
Nadiah? No.

Has 14 met your mother? (Faizzah)
Guess not.

How did you meet 17? (Syahirah)
This year. As classmates. AJK maths. I'm trying to get to know ppl.

Did you ever accidentally physically hurt 20? (Fara)
Yes, I guess. I don't remember.

Do you live close to 16? (Nadiah)
Whoa. Far as ever.

What is 8’s favorite food? (Raudhah)
Never have I take note of what ppl like to eat.

What kind of car does 1 have? (Azri)
No. She's still Form 4 lor.
Next year, she'll learn to drive.
Then, maybe she'll get a car of her own.

If you gave 14 $100, what would she spend it on? (Faizzah)
I won't do that. I'd rather spend on myself. Hehe... Spoilt brat of me.
But if I do, she might spend on something relating to the Lollipop band.

Saturday, June 20, 2009

Ne~! Second hubby's big day.
On 18th of June, it's Yunoki's birthday! I remember well enough alright.

Heck! Four days I've been seeing her. Something inside me always urge me to go talk to her. But how? AZRI!!!

Hahar... I watched finish Kuroshitsuji. Sad ending but I love Sebastian. Ninth husband. Huahahaha!!!

Oh, Kanda... I still love you the most in a way!

Azri... How and why is that we can't even be friends? It's unfair how it turn out to be. Gomenasai.

Tuesday, June 16, 2009

I got from someone's blog but I'm not tagged!
If you are tagged, answer these 14 questions, yar? -,<


1. Besides your lips, where is the favorite spot to get kissed?


2.How did you feel when you woke up this morning?


3.Who was the last person/people you took a photo with?


4.Would you consider yourself spoiled?


5.Will you ever donate blood?


6.Have you ever had a best friend who was of the opposite sex?


7.Do you want someone to be dead?


8.What does your last text message say?


9.What are you thinking right now?


10. Do you want someone to be with you now?


11.What was the time you went to bed last night?


12.Where did you buy the tee you are wearing now?


13.Is someone on your mind right now?


14.Who was the last person who text you?


TEN LUCKY Person to do this quiz.
1- Ashwanii
2- AZRI
3- Chang
4- Chiah
5- GPS
6- Olivia
7- Raudhah
8- Syafiqa
9- Syazleen
10- Syazreen



15. Who is no.2 having a relationship with?
Azri? How do I know? Ppl just won't tell me anyway.

16. Is no. 3 a male or a female?
Female.

17. If no.7 and no.1 get together, would it be good?
Raudhah and Ash? Sure, sure. They're friends.

18. What is no.1 studying about?
Ash? Erm... Same as me. She's the same class as me since Standard 3 or 4 (dunno which) and also till form 2! So, surely learning all the main seven subject for PMR! K.Hidup- KT lor!

19. when was the last time you chatted with them?
Them all? Azri's already more than a month for sure. Unless she wants to talk to me but I don't think she will at all! The others are last week!

20. Is no. 4 single?
Chiah. Yar. She'll kill me if I say she's not. But honestly, she had had a godsis, Jamie.

21. Say something about no.2.
Azri. Oooo... O_o
I dunno. She's everything to me! My best idol.
She's cute & adorable in every way, as always.
She's intelligent.
Has good skills in ninja-ing.
Erm... I dunnoe already and there are too many good qualities about her that I can't type finish.
She says I'm a stalker and she's not forgiving me.
More importantly, she's a SPECIAL person to me!!!

22.What do you think about no. 2 and no. 6 being together?
Azri and Olivia? Oh no. My sister dislike her in a way I can' tell at all. She says that person is rude. (But to me, it's just her, Azri. No one can change that fact. ^.^)

23. Describe no.9.
Syazleen?
Twin sister of Syazreen. Call her Leen. 15 yrs old like me. Cute. Born on 8th of December (Same as my father. Hahar...) She's my friend. What to say some more? Dunno.

24. What will you do if no.6 and no.7 fight?
Olivia and Raudhah? Impossible that will happen.

25. Do you like no.8?
Syafiqa. I don't hate people. I don't dislike any ppl of the above or I wouldn't choose them as lucky persons. (especially Azri! Ha!)


I realised life is hard to go through. I'm sesat jalan ady. Someone anywhere? Pls help me out. These two days, life is difficult 4 me. I kept seeing 'her'. Then, my heart will skip a beat. "Is it her or am I dreaming?" "Why the heck she's appearing in front of my eyes for so many times?" Just when she got me so painful in the heart... She sort of broke a part of my heart (where that part was reserved 4 her. The others are for my 8 hubbies.). It's just so unfair to be meeting her countless times. Well, next time, appear before me when I'm still admiring u lar... My life is always upside down, isn't it?

Now, to tell u the truth... I'm still admiring her in a way I do not know how to explain. And if my friends were to hear even her name, they will surely go *sigh*. So, I kept my feelings to myself. I won't disturd my friends' lives.

I'm bottling it up until I can't bear it. Okay, so I'm still admiring her and she said I'm some kind of stalker. Which it sent my heart to break a piece of it into pieces. Hey, I told u, the other parts r 4 my yu kanda, yunoki azuma, kyouya ootori, yukimura sanada, sebastian michaelis (the latest), etc. You wouldn't wanna waste time reading my hubbies' names, ne? So, my effort to convince her is just hopeless and can be thrown into the sea?

I've tried my utter best to make a friendship with her, by talking to her online. Fs and myspace... We talked like junior and senior all right. Almost there. Boom! Whoa. She knows I'm the same person who admire her? Unforgivable! And the stupid side of me, took action. On teacher's day, I gave her a rose. What was that supposed to mean? I'm showing some kind of hint to her.

Bah! The most idiotic and weakest side of me did a stupid thing. Deep down I was crying because I never saw her holding the red rose ever again. I blamed her that she threw it away. Damn it! Tch! But then, I never knew I've been stalking her life. I blamed myself and refuse to admire her again. I deceived the inner me and tried as best as I could, to hate her. To make her the one I hate the most. But the more I tried, I ended up hurting myself even more. I just don't want to know that.

Ugh! I'm a weak person inside. Although people say I may be hyper, energetic and whatsoever, I don't believe it myself. I know that I'm a weak person inside. I love myself if you asked. Yar, I love myself but I hate myself too. I can't explain in words.

Lastly, AZRI... when are you able to forgive me? I don't accept hate in life. To me, hate does not exist in my life. I dunno but maybe people do hate me a lot. But hate is the worst thing that will hurt me. I love everyone. I'm fine here. I will go on living. Gambatte!


Yar... Sebastian Michaelis is my eighth husband. Although a demon (akuma, as he says), he's sweet!!! Yar, I won't forget Yu Kanda!!! ^.^

Sunday, June 7, 2009

Kya!!!! It's Yu-sama's birthday yesterday! I'm going bonkers. Stayed up till 12am to wish him, alright! And then stayed until the end of his birthday! Hahahar!!!

06/06/09 - Yu-sama's Birthday! Happy Birthday!!! Ai shiteru!!!

Love!!!

Wednesday, June 3, 2009

You wouldn't believe this but this is the first template I made myself. I'm proud of it although it sort of sucks in a way as the color matchings are that bad, ne? It took me two days to edit things here and there to make it fine. I'm almost mad!

D.GRAY-MAN ADDICTED!!!

Yu Kanda-sama...

Monday, June 1, 2009

Special 100% thanks to Hasegawa-san for the template! I'm grateful and proud of it. D.Gray-Man related! Woohooo!!!!

And Yahoo!!! I found D.Gray-Man's 2009 Calendar! It's so damn nice. Cool! Cute! Sweet! You may say I'm too obsessed into D.Gray-Man, alright. I don't mind. ^.^ D.Gray-Man! Yu-chan! Kanda-sama! Yu Kanda, my prince! Without you for one day, I cannot live. Kya!!!!

Saturday, May 30, 2009

Great! I changed my template. Thanks to Raudhah! D.Gray-Man! Hahahar!!!

And yar, mid-term test is the end! Woohoo! Cheers!!!

Fahrenheit is in Johor now. Boohoo. I can't go... I didn't go to digicentre to get the pass to go. Too bad.

Then, at least I had to dream of Yu Kanda-sama... ^.^

Tuesday, May 26, 2009

Hohohor... It seemed like I was tagging behind her after school but not really, just coincidence, that's all. Well, I was going out of class and waited for Chiah and Izzatul but then... Erm... I saw her going down the stairs. Yeah. I was going to go down the stairs too but a bit later than her. So, when no one was walking behind her and people who know that I admire her, might think I'm tagging behind her until the school gate. It's a long journey.

Heck. It seems that she saw me because I shouted when Huda came behind me to pinch my cheeks (She always seem to do so, not that I objected at all.). Heck, really! Because we are looking at each other... Ohmigosh. I can feel myself flushing pink. And it could be obvious. I don't know. nd I don't know what is her mind thinking. Is it s _ _ _ _ _ _? I hope not...


I saw AZRI today... My heart is at war. I don't feel like I want to know why at all... *Groan*

Reason? I still admire her? Oh no... Hate or admiration is at war now. I felt lke sobbing whenever I had a flashback of what she said about me being a s _ _ _ _ _ _. You can surely guess what was the word. I am fond of her and in my daydreams, she's my favourite godsis. Yar, I know she wouldn't accept.


I asked for her forgiveness in her blog and I knew she would be angry. It all started out that I gave her a rose (Stupid rose for existing but not its fault, mine.). Supposedly, rose are romatic, aren't they? But then later, I didn't see it anymore so I thought that she threw it, maybe? Wrong idea! She read my blog which was a big shock to me. I hated myself for the wrong accusation. I accused her throwing that rose. She used angry words. From her words, I was sure she was talking about me. Not only that. It seems that she was very angry. Damn it! She read my blog!


I asked for frogiveness in her blog. I said sorry. Then... she and I lost contact... In fs and myspace. She was never heard by me again. And I seldom see her... Until today that set my feelings at war! (I seemed dramatic but all was true). She changed her blog url just to get away from me. I'm... going to cry now but I'm holding on. Don't want to blur the image of the computer at the moment. I want to write on...


Okay... So... I'm very very very very very x1,000,000 million times SORRY!!! Forgive me and give me one last chance, please? Onegai? Anybody can tell me how to apologise to her whether faceto face or through mail. But for mail, she'll ignore me. On the other hand, she'll ignore me too in school. Ugh!! I'm useless!


Yup! Guess what? I got 2 free passes to enter the zon for Fahrenheit's concert! I'm thrilled to death! But still, it upsets me for... I can't go. Parents won't allow... They said it's dangerous that people might step on people, you know? All those pushing and squeezing. Hmm... My prents lways don't allow me out. It's a bit unfair and I know they care for my security but and I loved it that way how they protect me... I'm a big baby! They spoilt me. Not that I have any objection... at all!

So... the first time I get to go out without my parents was when I was Primary 6. Going to a trip to Jusco, organised by the school. Hehe... Thee second time that I remember was... me camping, also organised by the school anyway but I got home early because my sis not feeling that well. I admit I don't like camping. I mean, I can survive if I had my favourite bath and all. Spoilt kid. A pity... So spolit. Like spoilt princess!!! Hahahar!!!


I'm still very upset that I can't go to Fahrenheit's concert. Can't I have a little bit of freedom? I don't offend if My parents want to go. But my parents won't even allow me to go. Even if I have enough tickets. The thing is those free passes I won are going to be wasted. Such a pity... I beg that, for this once please let me go? I beg... I want to be hopeful that my wish will come true and I get to see my beloved Jiro hubby.... on stage, singing. I had been daydreaming that one day, Fahrenheit will come to Johor but I know it was hopeless. Then, it's just like magic is in the air. Suddenly, Fahrenheit did come! It was like, WOW! Unbelievable but true. But still... I can't go. Boohoohoo!!! TOT!!!

Oh! Did I tell you that the Grief and Sorrow is THE END already? Hahar... So careless of me...

Saturday, May 23, 2009

I've never met someone so... "Ugh!" ... before. Simply just say... Do you really think you are worth it? You are not somehow. Grrrr!!! Cheh! Some person you are! And I can't believe what my friends said. Unbelievable, truly. Even my sister also support the fact about that 'HATE' thingy of mine. Yar, life's just like that for me. Always blinded by other things. Always chose the wrong things and then... regret. Fully. Ugh! Tch! I hate myself already. Everyday. Everything about myself. Full of hatred, that's me.

Ahhh.... I'm dreaming about Kanda, always. He never failed to 'not' hurt me. He's nice.


Oh, the sinful darkness tugging at my heartstrings,
Your voice is like anaesthesia,
Coldly, it robs me of my senses.

*Yukaho*

I stopped by the frozen lake and watched it, letting my tears flow. The darkness around me reminded me that I was in pain. I was and yet, I am.

I felt like commiting suicide now. I placed one feet onto the ice slowly and balanced myself. The cold ice under my shoes can be felt and sent shiver down my spine. It is cold. Very.

I only smiled. I am going to die. What I care for in this world. There's not a care anymore. My parents are gone, only an old man who is willing to adopt me. My best friend is gone too. I do not have a boyfriend. So, nobody would even care. So, why I care? It's useless to stop me now. I walked on on the thin ice to find a nice spot where no one can find me.

I did not notice someone watching me and shouting at me to come back, or rather not wanting to care. His voice fell back on deaf ears. I smiled to myself. He can watch, as he was just a stranger to me.

I tapped the ice underneath me. It should be time now. I tapped harder, breaking the ice. The person watching me was gone. Finally, I can die in peace.

A dark figure caught my arm and pulled me out of where I was standing and carried me on his back to firm ground. "We are safe..." he told me. I struggled to go back. "I want to die. Let go!" I shouted at him. He was too strong for me. He carried me all the way home.

He sang a tune, a lullaby. I remembered the sweet song. I fell asleep, head on his shoulder. I did not notice that he had me sleep on his bed while he kept on singing the lullaby to make me go to sleep. He stayed where he was for the whole night, beside my bed. Singing lullabies.

In the cold, I realise that, there is a someone that cared for me... A stranger, still. Why, oh why not let me die to end my suffering? I don't deserve this care. You are too kind.

So, am I going to start a new life in the next morning, with you still by my side? I grow to love this stranger, secretly, in my sleep. I smiled in my sleep and had the sweetest dream. I forgot my pain and dreamed.

Thursday, May 21, 2009

My hopes were alone in the desolate night sky,
They soared high until they were crushed.
Each time the world changes shape,
The things I want to protect,
I end up breaking them.

*Yuuichirou*

I hoped that she had felt better when I leaded her into my warm house. I poured some hot tea for her. She remained silent.

I hoped that she would say something soon. My worries for her never stopped. Until she speaks something, then I will be put in ease.

My hopes were shattered because about fifteen minutes had passed as I stared at her for so long, she neither speak nor move, like a statue. I looked away, mind blank. I don't know what to say.

"Are you alright?" I decided to ask after taking a few moments to gather my courage to talk. I am those quiet type so, I am not very good in conversation.

She finally seemed to wake up from her senses for so long. Her wet eyes reminded me of a very pitiful animal who is hurt. I shook the thought away from my head and waited for her reply.

She answered softly enough for me to hear, "No." Suddenly, she buried her face into my chest and sobbed harder. I carressed her silky hair and hushed her. "Don't cry..." I said.

Each time she cried harder in every minute, it broke a piece of my heart. How I wished I can share what pain is she in. But she had not said anything besides a 'no'.

I felt that I must protect her in a way. No matter what happens, I must. She is sorrowful which made me felt as if she is not ever so strong to face the world anymore. She had weakened because of something I wished to know... as soon as possible, if she is willing to share.

"Do you want to share what is bothering you?" I asked her. She stared at me with those red eyes. It pierced my heart every time I see her like this. Wanting to bottle up her feelings, trying to be brave and strong. I wished I can read her mind to know.

Then, she cried harder and ran out of my house. I stared after her before I started to chase her myself. There, I had done the wrong thing, right? I shouldn't have asked. I should let her cool down a little bit more. And should have asked her name rather than that. But I want to know, to let her pour out her feelings, to make her feel better.

I regret. I promised to protect her but I failed at the first task, on the spot. I had broken her heart even more. I regret... regret and regret.

Wednesday, May 20, 2009

I watched it through the window of grief,
I never dreamed,
I stand frozen,
There... I come for you.

It's been quite some time for me... To stare out of the window... of grief. Grief as it is.

I had never been this interested in as watching the snow fall. It was really a beautiful sight. After all these years, never had I been absorbed into this nature. It came as a surprise. Funny, I thought.

Grief as it was. I saw someone so charming and caught my attention. I had rubbed my eyes to make sure that I wasn't dreaming. And there she was, kneeling and crying like her life was full of sorrow. I stand there frozen, did not have any idea what to do when I finally decided...

My thoughts were suddenly erased as I tore my eyes away from her because I had a ctually spilled my tea. That was certainly careless. I went into the kitchen to grab a cloth and wiped the mess away. Ugh! It still has its smell on the floor. I don't know what to do else as I'm a guy who had been left behind by my parents who died in a car accident, just like that without anyone to help raise me. I have no other relatives nearby. Alone.

I learnt the way of living myself. Earn my own money, which is more than enough. I am independent now although I'm just about 15 years old. It's been three years from that. I could get a wife, I joked to myself. I may had friends but was not close to any of them. I love to mourn by myself in my own house. To have peace and quiet so no one can bother me.

I gazed back out of the window. The 'she' was turning pale blue. Cold.

I started to get worried. I rushed out of my house and threw a thick blanket over her. 'There, I had come for you...' I whispered softly.

I am who I am with only one name I gave myself, Yuuichirou, as my old one only bring back memories of the past which was horrible. Very.


The sky is dyed red by the ebony darkness,
And the distant stardust swallowed up,
In this transient moment as the snowing ashes fall.

As a girl watched the dark sky, she felt... alone. With the dark sky looming over her, suddenly, snow started to fall above her, unexpectedly. In the field alone, she only felt pain. Too painful to bear. She fell backwards and layed on the soft patch of grass, watching the lonely sky.

I am who I am, Yukaho. I hated it. It's just too unfair. My life is meaningless already. I never thought that it could pierce me this deep in the heart. I wanted to heal but it was too difficult anyway.

It just crept its way into my mind...
-Flashback-

"Oh, shut up, Yukaho! I don't want to befriend you anymore. You're just a piece of junk to me now! Even Natsumi told me that you are not of my type. She said you don't suit me!" another girl of her age shouted at her while they were walking back home.

I stared at her, shocked. It sent shiver down my spine. Did she meant it? It took me some time to absorb her words into my mind. I couldn't believe it. I took one last look at her and ran off, spilling tears all the way home.

What kind of friend is she? She isn't worth to be my friend anymore. She insulted me. Once she told that she hated Natsumi and made me promise never to befriend with that fellow. But now, she even listened to her. What was that?!!

-End of flashback-

I walked back home, full of grief and sorrow. I don't want to befriend with her anymore. I regretted.

Snows had already covered my path to home. I kicked them off to release my anger. Then, I fell down onto my knees and started crying again. I don't want to go on living. I want to... die.

To be continued...

Tuesday, May 19, 2009

Kawaii Azri, Azri yang begitu kawaii sekali... Sekali pandang, dah nampak seorang yang comel. Comelnya, 100%. Bila dia senyum, lagilah comel tapi apabila mukanya yg cool tu... Pun nampak comel sekali!

Eventually,... Erm...

カワイイAzri, ゴメナサイ! (Katakana)
可爱的 Azri, 对不起！(Chinese)
Cute Azri, sorry!
Azri yang comel, minta maaf!

I really am a jerk! Not her fault. Just me simply accuse people. Huhuhu... T.T But I never quite well suspected that my blog had so many visitors. To think that my blog, only some of my friends know. But even seniors know? Very unexpected. Well, because my blog only contains Yu Kanda so much so I thought people will get bored and forget about it. So long forgotten. It's just that because Ashwanii said I kept talking about Yu Kanda so... I thought I might update about A-Z. Well, no need to say A-Z since she already know, too many people knows!

バカ！(Katakana)　ばか！(Hiragana) 笨蛋！(Chinese) Means: Idiot!
That's me!

Monday, May 18, 2009

Is it just me or 'her'(Bernama A-Z)?




Yeah well, I bought a flower -rose- for Azri on teacher's day although I shouldn't do so actually... Because it's teacher day. Chang counted the petals of the rose -to give or not to give- but the result was 'to give', not really accurate, I guess... I ended up standing there like a JERK! Gathering courage to give her, flushing the deepest red. Err... Fara called her for me and I'm so sorryyyyyy... Because she's eating. I'm gonna kick my own butt for disturbing her meal, if I can reach. It took some time for her to come, like forever~! Hehe... I shyly gave it to her. Her beautiful and kawaii smile is what I'm going to treasure... She smiled and said 'thanks'. OMG! It's my first time, face to face! I'm gonna kill myself somehow! I kept having flashbacks of it!

But then later, what upsets me. It's just me, not her fault. My existence was plainly.... Let's just say, I wish to be 'not existed' at the moment. But anyways, I love my own existence because I can see the WORLD. Going back to the topic... I sort of saw her 'without' the flower anymore. So, the first thought that came to me was that, she threw it. But will she do so? It is possible. You don't even know. It's a heartache for me to bear. It made me mad, want to cry myself to sleep but I didn't shed a tear. I want to be strong. I try to forget about it and think that it had never happened at all. So, that was my first thought.... But secondly was, maybe she 'tumpang letak' in other people's water bottle? Roses need water or will layu.... I'm being hopeful here. HOPE!!!


So, I can't decide whether it's the first or second. Or is there any option number three? I do not have any idea. I'm sick of this, thinking about this. I think I am crazy too! Huahahaha!!! Because... to forget upset, sad or angry thoughts.... I think of my lovely, one and only Yu Kanda!!! That's why I said I'm crazy but it's a help to me anyways. He made me forget the world I'm in. I just think of him, nothing else more.... It means I'm too obsessed in him, love him more than ever..... that no one else can replace HIM!


Although there are some other guys I go for, actually....

Animes: (Just font colour almost same with thier hair colour. Mostly black!)

1. Yu Kanda (D.Gray-Man)
   




2. Yunoki Azuma (La Corda D'oro)






3. Kyouya Ootori (Ouran High School Host Club)






4. Yukimura Sanada (Samurai Deeper Kyo)






5. Li Koyu (Saiunkoku Monogatari)





6. Allelujah Haptism (Gundam 00) [I got the sticker of their Gundams!!! Woohooo!!!]






7. Alto Saotome (Macross Frontier)







8. Nyx (Neo Angelique Abyss)

Real life:

1. Jiro Wang Dong Chen a.k.a Da Dong, from Fahrenheit a.k.a Fei Lun Hai





2. Danson Tang Yu Zhe

They're all my boyfriend!!! Or can I say.... Yu Kanda and Jiro is my husband?! Huahahahaha!!!

Sunday, May 17, 2009

Lavi hug!




Alone together...




My Favourite D.Gray-Man song!!!

Doubt & Trust ~Dauto & Torasuto~
Vocals: access


Owari mo miezu hashirinukeru
Yasuragi wa tooku sugata mo naku
Kodoku o fuujikomete tozashikakeru manazashi

Habataku mono o mukaeru sora
Shihaisareru no o osore ya shinai
Akogareru mabayusa wa subete o kaeru tame ni

Dare mo yurusazu ni doko e yukeru darou?

Hikari no moto yami wa umare
Shinjitsu wa itsuwari ni yureru
Kokoro o tsukisasu
Fureta yoru o koorasete mo
Yume to iu yokubou no kage o yobitsuzukeru

Kimi no tsumi to itami o shinjite yuku

Zenbu hoshii, to sasayaku koe
Nakushiteku koto ni oitsukezu ni
Saki made motomeru yubi tsumetasa ni kizukanai

Ai o nokosu nara tometa kuchibiru ni

Hikari dake ga yami o unde
Nukumori wa utagai o kasanete
Tadoritsuku omoi
Kawasu mune ni chikau mono ga
Eien no kizu de kamawanai kizamitsukete

Toki ni kizuku hazama ni kieru mae ni


Hikari no moto yami wa umare
Shinjitsu wa itsuwari ni yureru
Kokoro o tsukisasu
Fureta yoru o koorasete mo
Yume to iu yokubou no kage o yobitsuzukeru

Kimi no tsumi to itami o shinjite yuku

Fahrenheit!!!!

Wednesday, May 13, 2009

I would like to say good luck to those taking the Permata Pintar test because it is damn bloody hard!!! Spent about two hours although I was guessing all the way! Hey, lots of questions they ask, kay?
Here's the link: http://www.permatapintar.com.my . Good luck and hope I don't scare you. If you want to do the test, I advise you : DO NOT READ ON!!! If you're interested to know, you can read....


Firstly, there are three sections:
-1st section, choose pictures that you find they match. It's endless. Believe me! Oh, first few questions are easy, alright, but later, you'll find them difficult! It's really some kind of IQ test! I am sure I had already fail the first section. What's more? It's getting even more difficult!

-2nd section, type meanings of the words given. About more than twenty words. Make sure you are rich in vocabularies, then! If you don't know the meaning, you'll have to put a '?'. Ugh! I can tell you that most of my answers are blank. Rest assure. There may be words you know BUT couldn't explain. Just like me, for instance. Words I've heard before but I couldn't explain.
(Surely, Izzatul are going to the next test. She went to the Spell-it-right Competition and learnt about more than a hundred of words!)

-3rd section, 44 multiple choice questions. Just choose the best meaning for the word given. I made guesses for the questions!


T.T I did badly and WOULD fail for it! So, wish ya'all luck for those taking, kay? Don't get disappointed if you feel that you might fail. Don't be like me. I almost am going to cry. Of course, I already gave up half-way through but had to move on. I can't say anything anymore...

Tuesday, May 12, 2009

The person that tagged you is: Raudhah.
2. Your relationship with her is: Friends.
3. Your first impression of her is: Cute
4. The most memorable moments with her: Everyday seems to be...
5. The most memorable thing she has said to you is: Donnoe.
6. If she becomes your lover, you will: Never HAPPENS.
7. If she became your lover, what should she improve at: Nothing coz she'll not be.
8. If she becomes your enemy, what would you do: Make friends with her. I love peace. (Again)
9. If she becomes your enemy, the reason will be: Donnoe.
11. Your overall impression on her: Err... Cute friend?
12. The characteristic you love most about yourself: Don't have one.
13. The characteristic you hate most about yourself: Everything I guess!
14. The most ideal person you want to be is: Caring and happy-go-lucky.
15. For people that care and like you, say something to them: Thank you so very much!!! Haix! ^o^

Tuesday, May 5, 2009

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Name: May Ting (Michelle)
Nickname: Yuka Koyomi
Birth: 16 December

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No Other

☆ No Other ☆

There’s no one like you, even if I look around it’s just like that
Where else to look for? A person good like you, a person good like you, a heart good like you, a gift good like you
How lucky, the person who will try hard to protect you is just me
Where else to look for? A guy happy like me, a guy happy like me, a guy who laughs with the greatest happiness like me

Your two warm hands get cold when I’m cold, your heart which used to be strong gets sensitive when I’m hurt
To silently take my hands, to silently hold me, I only wish for those small comforts
You don’t know this heart of mine, which always wants to do more for you

My heart, say it out loud, my free soul
The days left are even more than the time when I came love you with a heart which always felt like the first time
There’s no one like you, even if I look around it’s just like that
Where else to look for? A person good like you, a person good like you, a heart good like you, a gift good like you
How lucky, the person who will try hard to protect you is just me
Where else to look for? A guy happy like me, a guy happy like me, a guy who laughs with the greatest happiness like me

When my greedy heart gradually looks to other directions, when my greeds grow more than my mind can handle
To understand, to tell me clearly after all those excuses “I’m here”, only that one thing
I’m always thankful. Will I ever act that well just like you

My heart, say it out loud, my free soul
The days left are even more than the time when I came love you with a heart which always felt like the first time

There’s no one like you, even if I look around it’s just like that
Where else to look for? A person good like you, a person good like you, a heart good like you, a gift good like you
How lucky, the person who will try hard to protect you is just me
Where else to look for? A guy happy like me, a guy happy like me, a guy who laughs with the greatest happiness like me

You know what, little much little even though I’m shy, you don’t know it but you’re burning like the sun, please understand my heart
Even though those girls appearing on TV shows are sparkling, I always look at you (I’m crazy crazy Baby)
Hearing you tell me “I love you”, I have everything in this world You & I, You’re so fine, Is there even anyone like you?
I love you Oh, please know it, that to me there’s only you, that I foolishly see you as my everything

We came on the same road, we are just like each other, how surprising, how thankful, it’s just love

There’s no one like you, even if I look around it’s just like that
Where else to look for? A person good like you, a person good like you, a heart good like you, a gift good like you
How lucky, the person who will try hard to protect you is just me
Where else to look for? A guy happy like me, a guy happy like me, a guy who laughs with the greatest happiness like me
There’s no one like you

Innocence

Innocence stolen without my permission
Innocence gone without my submission

Innocence lost through another’s plan
Innocence no longer for another man

Innocence turned to hatred and fear
Innocence gone, no man can come near

Innocence taken from a little girl’s heart
Innocence replaced by mistrust, you thought you were smart

Innocence disappears like dew in the sun
Innocence faded before it’s begun

Innocence obscured like a cloud over the moon
Innocence ripped away too soon

Dance with the Music!

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